I love Maths, I love Maths, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MATHS!!!!!!

(I'm trying to psycho myself here, because I read this newspaper clipping about filling your mind with positive thoughts and allowing it to reap the positive thoughts that I have sown. Am I making sense?)

However, we all know that au contraire to the statement above the above statement, I do not have any feelings remotely associated with affection towards Maths. And tomorrow is my Maths PROMOTIONAL EXAM, and I am still happily(not really) starting on my Tutorial 11, which again, I was s'pposed to have completed two thousand eons ago. Congratulate me!!

I can only hope I get a decent grade, like 40+. I hope I get an E. Yes yes, hope hope hope also no use. But I am putting in some effort here! Or at least, I think I am.

I swear, that from this day on, I shall never ever not do my assignments. I hate it when it comes to major exams and you find you don't know a single piece of crap.

I am trying to forget the fact that I have not finished studying History, nor have I started on Econs AT ALL.

I am so going to study till my brain swells up and explodes, flinging wet, grey goo everywhere.

I have actually stopped fantasizing what I want to do after Promos because every fibre of my being is filled with the dread that I will get *gasp* retained. I have never ever doubted my ability to get promoted, but somehow it doesn't seem so easy anymore. These are the grades I am aiming for. Let's see how well I actually do.

Maths- E
History- B
Econs- B/C
Literature- B

I'm not too sure about History though. If I manage to cram everything into my brain... See, I don't want to just attain the minimum criteria that allows me to promote. I want to get a decent grade that I won't balk at, and that won't disappoint my parents.

ALL TALK & NO WORK= USELESS!!!!!

I shall not blog till my Econs paper is over! That is, I will only return next Friday! And I shall not come online unless it is to go to Litespeed!!!

And I really should stop eating everytime I get frustrated with Maths. Don't be surprised if I can't fit through the side gate by the end of exams because I would have ballooned up and floated away like Aunt Marge in Harry Potter. Except I think my case would be different, because I would be so absymally obese, that I would crash THROUGH the ground and caused an Earthquake measuring 10000000000 on the richter scale.

Oh my.

If you haven't started watching PRIDE...

WATCH IT NOW!!!

I've never been a fan of Japanese dramas, but this one is seriously good! Takuya Kimura is a bloody superb actor. And Halu, the character TK plays, is effing, effing HOT. He sizzles!!

Yesterday was a freaking good episode. Halu's character is really enigmatic. There's so many facets to his personality. He could be boyish and cute one minute, silent and threatening the next, jock-like and idiotic another. And Takuya Kimura brings all those facets out wonderfully.

Aiyah, words can't describe my feelings for the show. Even though its plot is a bit stupid and cliche, the actors' & actresses' acting more than makes up for it!

Halu-san!! I love you!

Hello! :)

At my sister's dormy in NTU now. I stayed over the night before, going home today. I slept for about five hours, and the unbelievable thing, is that I was reluctant to go to bed till I had attempted all the questions for Tutorial 14 for Math- Vectors. Yes, I know the rest of the J1 cohort taking Math has already finished that tutorial and probably redid it for ten times already, and have already completed their TYS, but I am nevertheless, extremely proud of myself!

Well, I'm the type who will not touch anything related to Math (except for $$$) if I can help it, so the fact that I sat my ass down and did my tutorial for about 3 hours is a big achievement for me. And I quite like vectors now! Except for the whole line of projection thing, which I have no idea what it is doing in my vectors tutorial, because its supposed to be part of 3-D Trig right? Lol.

Anyway, went to school yesterday to study with Zying. Didn't do much, except print out 2 lectures for European History, which were each so thick, I injured my hand trying to slam the stapler down onto the sheets of papers. -_-

Went to find Mr. Mao as well, to ask him about the Cultivation System. He also told us some stuff which somewhat enlightens me on the whole economic impact on SEA. Kudos to Mr. Mao! But I think he's afraid of us, cos we were cursing a certain ******* in his presence, and he thinks we talk bad about him behind his back as well. But we'd never do that, cos he's so nice & dedicated!

Went to J8 after that for lunch, and I bought my new sandals as well. Realised J8 gets effing boring after you go there for a few times. Which is strange, since I love going to TM or CS even though I've been frequenting the two malls for almost a decade?

Took a train to Boon Lay after that to meet my sis at Jurong Point, which is quite a nice mall by the way. It's a bit like Taka. Went to NTU after that and started studying History.

When I tried taking a nap, my head was swimming with the word "export" & "import". I would doze off for awhile, then suddenly wake up with those two words in my head. And I'd be like ??? Think I'm going crazy from all the History! And to think I wanted to take S paper. Wakaka. It's a damn joke now. Lol.

Oh, and a piece of good news that added some excitement to my life yesterday! Mr. Jeow's wife gave birth!! To a baby boy, called Ethan. Mr. Jeow sent me an MMS of the Ethan, and he's the cutest thing ever! He was sleeping, and although the picture was very grainy, you can still tell he's a cute baby. Mr. Jeow asked me if the baby looked like him, and when I said, "I can't see clearly, but since he's so cute, I'm sure he looks like your wife."- He went "Tmd, say me indirectly." Wahaha. I never expected Mr. Jeow to say TMD.

Okay. I need to go shit and continue with my work. Hwaiting!

And I miss you more than you will ever know.

Your silent smile, your teasing whispers, your low, masculine voice.

Remember how you said we'd be together, forever, for an eternity? I never thought you'd break your promise... that was a promise that I held sacred and true to my heart.
When you broke your promise and left, my heart broke along with you.

Why did you have to leave just like that? After all that you fought for... after all that we fought for... when everything was resolved... you had to leave.

Are you laughing at me now? Are you just a star amongst the millions that encrust the night sky?

I can never smile again. Not without you by my side. Not without your book to constantly hit my head everytime I say something stupid. Not without your Chippendale dance. Not without your hearty laughter.

Everywhere I go, your memory haunts me. The warmth of your skin stains my fingertips eternally. I feel your soft butterfly kiss upon my lips, and I hear your beautiful voice resonate in my head.

But your face is slowly fading from my memory. I'm scared, so very scared. I try to grab at the fragments... but they are forever just out of my grasp, elusive and taunting.

I don't want to forget you. But I am afraid, that one day, I'll wake up and you will not be in my thoughts anymore. Yet this pain kills me a little everyday. I cannot let go...

I never thought you'd leave me alone. Once in a lifetime, you will find the love Heaven created for you. I found mine, in you. But I lost you to Heaven just like that.

Nightmares... the scream of the bullet, the crimson red blood spilling everywhere...

Your beautiful face contorted with pain, deathly pale.

I will live, with my sheets forever soaked in tears. Tears that I have cried for you. Tears that you can never see.

You never even said goodbye...

Our love everlasting, fades away...

//This sucks big-time, I know. Heard the song "Tears" and just thought I'd try to write something sad but its really awkward, ain't it?

Joel once said that I seem to want a great love tragedy that will shake my world upside down. It might sound morbid, but I don't know. His question just threw me a little off-balance. I replied that I didn't want a tragedy, but I did want a love that would shake my world upside down.

To have that kind of love, that is immortalized in two persons' hearts and a love that does not grow cold and turn to dust in a tomb...

I am really quite certain I have Alzheimer's Disease. I'm gonna die!!

Went to Mac at Bishan interchange today to study with Zhiying & Mark. Mark was there earlier with Conrad & Gracia, and their canoeing teacher-in-charge. Mac was damn noisy. I don't think I will study there again. They have birthday parties there every Saturday, I reckon. I was not exactly productive, nor was I exactly unproductive.

Mark is hilarious. Wahaha. Zhiying loves Molecule now! Wakakakaka.

Aye, I've got tons of stuff I want to buy! Saw a pair of pretty sandals today at J8! And the best thing is, it's on sale! *Cue flashing neon light* I'll either buy it tomorrow or on Monday I guess. I want to buy earrings as well... and a pair of sneakers. Aiyah blah, blah, blah. The list will go on forever.

Quite excited about the auditions. I hope BBGT will want to take part! I've already thought of the songs we could use for the dance, and some of the steps. I was thinking of asking Elaine's bestest friend- Jaren, if he wants to take part & help come up with steps, cos I found out he dances too! Like, not in the gay way I know it sounds. He took part in Danceworks- the Open Category. I reckon he must be quite good!

I better stop eating so much since trainings have stopped for now. I can already feel my stamina being flushed down the toilet bowl into nothingness. Argh!!

Lots of things to do after Promos.

-Shop!
-Trainings
-Basketball camp
-Testimonial match
-Alumni matches
-Makeup lectures
-Holiday homework
-Start on J2 work
-Audition for performances
-Open House interhouse match

Ah. To think my life in Secondary school was so slow-paced. I'm not quite used to having a CCA that occupies about half my time? Or possibly more than that. But it is a pleasurable occupation, except for the 3 rounds.

Trying to think of what I shall do tomorrow. Annyong!

It just occured to me what disease I might possibly have. Alzheimer's Disease. I have been getting mild pains in my head of late, and my memory seems to be getting worse. Yesterday, I took my scrunchie out from my room in the morning, with every intention of placing it in my bag, but leaving it on the study table and forgetting about it. I was also supposed to bring along my spectacle cloth, but while there was this nagging thought that told me I'd forgotten to bring something, I did not know what it was till I reached school. And I always lose my hairclips because I don't know where I put them. And today, for a moment, I forgot what my Sec 4 class was called.

"A mental death will come before a physical one"

Stage 1: Early in the illness, Alzheimer's patients tend to have less energy and spontaneity, though often no one notices anything unusual. They exhibit minor memory loss and mood swings, and are slow to learn and react. After a while they start to shy away from anything new and prefer the familiar. Memory loss begins to affect job performance. The patient is confused, gets lost easily, and exercises poor judgment. - from: http://www.ahaf.org/alzdis/about/adsymp.htm

Today while playing basketball I felt really tired even though we were only playing half-court and for not more than an hour. Minor memory loss: check (see aforementioned). And for yesterday and today, I woke up on the wrong side of bed again! I thought it'd be gone by today, but apparently my evil-ness persisted for today. I felt bold and evil. One of the symptoms is also language difficulties, and I can't articulate myself properly nowadays. I keep tripping over my words.

Oh no. I really don't want to become like SYJ in A Moment to Remember.

Got Econs test back today. Very upset, only got 12/20. T___T Stupid Zhiying is a geek lah. Wahaha. She always mocks me for looking like a nerd, with my backpack and the way I behave, but in reality I'm actually super cool, while she's the real geek in disguise behind her Eminem-loving, rap-worshipping facade. Wakakaka.

Discussed with 05A5A hottays (only applies to the girls) where to go after Promos. Tentative plans are to shop, eat then go clubbing/pubbing. But I seriously don't think I want to go clubbing/pubbing. At some point in time I will want to experience it, but not now I guess. My parents wouldn't like for me to go, and I don't want to lie to them about my whereabouts.

Okay, shall blog later if I can remember what I wanted to talk about. Bro wants to use the computer. Handah.

She glared at him, hate emanating from the sheer intensity of her eyes. He never listened. Despite her telling him repeatedly, over and over again, he never, even listened. He did whatever he liked, whenever he wished to, and however he wanted it to be.
He was inconsiderate, selfish, self-centered all rolled into an unattractive, pathetic excuse for a man.

"Why can't you ever listen? Stop thinking the damn world revolves around you and your stupid little escapades! I'm sick and tired of running after you, reminding you about this and that like I'm some kind of secretary!" She burst out, a torrent of words flooding out of her mouth.

"I can't take it anymore. You always force me to listen to you, but have you ever really listened to me? No, you've never. You're selfish. You think the things you have to say are always the most interesting, that they matter the most. Anything I say is inconsequential. You never cared. Stop pretending to." Tears of anger rolled down her cheeks, as she left the room, slamming the door shut with a finality that chilled him to the bones.

Do you guys realise that people want to talk, but they hardly ever have a genuine interest in listening to what you want to say? Very interesting, no?

Human nature is a complex one. I disliked him at first. I thought he was some sissy, stuffy attention-grabber. But then as I got to know him better... I realised that he has a heart that is pure and true. He's grossly misunderstood... but then again, pertaining to my above point, I doubt many would ever try to understand him. Yes, he does have a motor-mouth, and most of the time, he only ever talks about himself. But when I understood his situation, him wanting to talk himself is probably warranted. And if it makes him happy having someone there to listen to him... then that's fine with me. No one person has entirely bad points. He in turn, is willing to lend a listening ear, and for that I am much appreciative. Guess it goes both ways, although not all the time, and in that aspect I am quite disappointed.

But then again, I have many problems which I keep to myself, and which will probably never see the light of day. I am quite fine with that.

I felt particularly bitchy and nasty today, but I don't really care. I must've woke up on the wrong side of bed today. But it feels good to have evil thoughts and speak mean things about people without giving a hoot about what your friends/people around you think. But I'll probably revert back to my saintly self by tomorrow. Hur hur.

For an entire two hours or so, I was considerably silent. The disinclination to talk has never struck me so hard as today. There were sounds and movement around me, but I felt as if I was encapsulated in a snug little box, looking but not seeing, hearing, but not listening. Thoughts ran through my mind, but it was not all entirely about Helmet. Today, I faced crushing disappointment.

But I am strong and I will feel better. I will not care and I will learn to be goverened by rationale and my reason, not by impulsiveness. I will practise self-restraint and calmness of mind, sweetness of temper. I will not let insignificant, selfish acts by people bother me.

On a brighter note, Happy Birthday Bob!!! :) Please study hard for Maths alright! ;)

Alright, I'm going to finish up my EoM now. Annyong!

Misang-hae. I feel as if I might never smile again.

Her face crumpled up as her eyes welled up with tears. She tried to stop the tears from falling, but to no avail. Something so simple as crying, to show her outpouring of grief. Yet, the acute pain in her heart was unbelievable. She felt as if she would die from the pain, she felt as if there could not possibly be anything in this world that could ever make her smile again. She knew, as she gazed at his back, getting further from her, that if he walked through the doors of the church... she would never see him again.
"Goodbye..." She choked out, biting back a wretched sob as he crossed the threshold, disappearing into the bright sunlight.
To have your hopes raised, then in the next instant, to have it dashed like it never mattered much. It is a painful thing, more painful than a slash to your wrist, more painful than seeing the blood spurt forth from your veins.
She loved, and she lost.

Was watching The Axis of Truth II. Saw the scene in which Rui En was crying... thought she was pretty good! That kinda inspired me to write the above paragraph. Coupled with my current low state. It'll blow over by tomorrow.

I hope.

If only I had worked at the pace I am working at now... I'm sure I would not have been so inadequately prepared for the Promotionals. I never do learn my lesson. Like what Mark said, we keep telling ourselves that we are going to work hard everyday and do effing well for Promos, but well, its easier said than done. Grrr.

Studied SEA History today until my brain swam with smallholding, rubber, sugar, evil colonialists, innovative Chinese with their extensive trade links, Indian Chettyars... you get the picture.

While Zhiying and I were walking to the bus-stop, she kept scaring me by opening her eyes really wide, and seriously, it frightened the hell out of me, to the point that I teared up. She kept making her evil eye even when I begged her to stop. Lol. Next time, I'm leaving school while its still light. I get kinda panicky when its dark and cold. It started raining as soon as I got off the bus, and while carrying my umbrella, I was afraid I was going to get struck by the lighting that flashed every few seconds. I didn't dare to hold the umbrella properly and held it by the plastic only. Wahaha. I'm a damn freak lah.

Missed my PRIDE again! :( Aish, Takuya Kimura is so damn hot. Watched Shooting Stars though. Olinda Cho's acting is quite good. She's very comical. Hahaha. Toots is so cute! His nose is more aquiline than usual though.

Finished my mindmaps on Internal & External Economies of Scale. I know, a little too late to be doing mindmaps now, since I ought to be starting on memorizing chunks of text. Oh well.

I don't understand why they want to send her on course again, what with the Promos barely a week away. I mean, come on. Can't the damn course wait till after our Promos? It isn't as if the Bard's plays are a piece of cake and easily comprehensible. Ugh, seriously, the system is kind of screwed up. It makes me miss teachers like Mdm Wee. Even if she was eccentric, you couldn't say she wasn't dedicated to her work. Ah whatever. Guess I'll work through the play by myself. I refuse to believe I won't do well without her help.

Wanted to finish up my EoM today but my bro's using the computer where its stored in. Guess I'll finish it up tomorrow night.

And you looked so small, so forlorn and lost, despite being in a place so familiar yet so hostile. At that point, I wanted to protect you from the world.

From Michael Jackson's Ben:

"They don't see you as I do, I wish they'd try to."

I wish for everyone, perfect happiness. But that isn't possible. I want to try and alleviate your pain, but nothing's going to help if you won't help me, help yourself.

I have to try and complete my EoM by tonight, because I am not going to spend any of my time next week slaving over it. I really, really don't see any point in doing PW. Sigh. The one thing I'm looking forward to, is the Oral Presentation. I've already decided to plan and do most of the script or whatever you're s'pposed to do, to make up for Emily and Vincent's hard work put into our WR.

I wish I was a talented musician or artist. Then whenever I have one of my moods, not the bad kind, but the melancholic kind that evokes inspiration, I can compose a beautiful tune or paint of beautiful picture of the sunset. I really admire people who can play the piano. It's not a chance everyone gets.

I hope we can go on a CT outing after the Promos, and that everyone will go! The beach sounds good, no? Haha. But it'll be raining almost everyday by then.

Hey, Emma and Zhiying! I've thought of the movies we can watch during the sleepover at my house! Haha, all chick flicks lah. I'm a bimbo, what to do?

-Ten Things I Hate About You
-Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
-Mean Girls

I had more in mind but I've forgotten most of them. Anything with makeovers and hot guys, I like! Haha.

And to my four lovely girls, we've gotta go out soon alright! I miss all of you so much!

Photolog! :) These are pictures from yesterday!


Some of 05a5a girls with Bob at the back!


From left: Sweez, Marky, Weijian & Bob! Hella funny pic.


Part of a5a hottays!


Now I'm in the pic


I love this pic. From left: Zhiying, myself, Nadz, Emily, Ellis & Emmalyn


Mark, my love & myself! (Just kidding about the "my love" part. Hahaha)


Emmalyn, Zhiying & myself in NY's toilet!


Presenting our History play on Animal Farm!


Me as Old Major talking to the rest of the "animals"


The dance segment on Bye Bye Bye. For some reason, the class kept laughing during this scene.


Dah as Snowball!


Adeline, our wonderful narrator and pianist!


Emma as Boxer, the strong cart-horse! She made those ears herself, haha!


Me as Squealer, reciting a poem in praise of Napoleon (Zhiying).

/The History play was a success! Although during my solo singing segment, I went off-tune when I had to hit the high tone and dissolved in uncontrollable laughter, and we couldn't exactly remember our lines and had to read from our scripts and make up rubbish lines impromptu. Haha. Mr. Kellett liked it alot though! He said we were creative & impressive! I'd love to do something like that again!/


*Photo of the day!(*winks at Zhi) Myself, Zhiying and Wenyong. We were studying at Bishan Mac today. Wenyong likes to pout eh? Haha.

You're so damn annoying. I wish you'd just disappear from my sight. Everything about you is irritating. Your hair, your voice, your stupid face, your height, your attention seeking ways. Argh!

What did I ever do to warrant having a bloody gossip-monger in my life? Can't you just stop being a busybody and mind your own business? Do you really crave attention so much you have to go and worm out things from everyone? Damnit, you know what? Maybe it's your stinking hair. If you shaved it all off I might just find you a TINY BIT LESS SCUM-LIKE.

You're a GUY lah for goodness sake. Go and shoot aliens on the computer screen or something and stop being such a gossip! YAAARGH!!!!

So thanks, from now on, how the hell am I supposed to behave? Over-friendliness on my part? Perhaps. I'll just pretend he never existed.

On a brighter note... we had our History play rehearsal today in the music room. It was quite a hoot, and I'm rather excited for tomorrow.

Haha, there was this part where I was supposed to wipe a tear from my eye in an affected way. I was about to do so when I poked myself in the eye lah! My lens went out of place and I teared up for real. Damn funny. Lol. The dance segment's pretty darn cool. Lol. Hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow and we don't burst out into uncontrollable laughter!

So tired today. My calves are hurting man. Played netball for PE, sprinted like hell up and down the court. Haha. Slept like four hours the night before, was reciting the script and making some props. Ahhh. I'm looking forward to a good sleep tonight. Gotta wake up super early again tomorrow.

Why do I feel so depressed? Ah, seriously I find my feelings unwarranted.

Goodness, I'm so tired.

Stayed back in school till 8pm yesterday to study, with Mag & Zhiying. At some point, it started raining really heavily. I absolutely love the smell of rain. It was actually quite nice, with the gale howling and gusts of rain blowing everywhere. After it stopped raining, the entire parade square was bathed in glittering pools of water. Quite a pretty sight.

Reached home around 9pm, and rushed through my dinner and shower, before going online to do the GP slides. Which reminds me, I have to do the script for the presentation. Aaargh.

Almost couldn't wake up this morning. Found out that Vincent has dengue fever! Was quite horrified, hope he gets well soon!

I saw Fighting's face today, after a long time. Lol.

We rehearsed part of our script for History project today, after school. Quite a hoot. Rather excited for the play now! Hopefully we can memorise as much lines as we can, and the singing & dancing parts go smoothly. I have to sing solo for like two times lah. So embarrassing, I hope I don't go out of tune or anything. Good thing its the play's to be presented to class only.

Very high now, cos I was coming up with steps for the dance segment of our play, and I came up with some rather okay, pop-ish steps, then my sister told me to do contemporary, instead of hiphop. Its much easier to dance to the tune of the piano with contemporary, but it isn't a solo dance performance, and contemporary/ballet will be difficult to coordinate. Hmm. Will show the girls the steps tomorrow and see what they say.

Shucks, Math test tomorrow, and I haven't studied a single shit for it. Math is such a chore!!!

Aaaaah I don't wanna study anymore! Pass me the air tickets to Korea/Australia/Maldives NOW!!

Firstly, happy birthday Dah! :)

I slept at 2.30am this morning. I was up all night studying Labour & Wage Determination. Blasted topic! Okay, and so I was waiting to see Lin Jun Jie beatbox, since Channel U was airing a repeat of the finals of Project Superstar. It just gets more impressive when I watch it again! I realised he and Junyang both look like the Smurfs! But he looks ESPECIALLY like the Smurfs. Those big, bright eyes, his bulbous nose, and his two dimples. Puahaha.


I am lying in my bed
Thoughts of you running through my head.
The future we could have had
Running a brothel, running from the feds.
Illegal VCD stands
All over the heartlands
We could have become the mafia
With a lot of ka kia.
What I would do
To have us two
Running an empire
Of ah long vampires

Written by my sister. It's not completed yet though. It really makes me wonder what she's doing in her dormy at NTU. Hahaha. She could go and contribute to TalkingCock.com.

School tomorrow. I'm actually looking forward to it!

Some stuff I wanna watch after Promos...

Full House
MISA
Bittersweet Life
All In

Ling Hui's All In is still with me! Don't know if I wanna continue with it though. Quite boring eh, plus I really cannot stand the red lipstick SHG wears.

Gonna go running now. Annyong!

Ooof. I wasn't exactly very productive today. Cleared out my desk drawer and did Econs MCQ on Labour & Wage Determination. And I got most of them wrong. Argh. The topic looks DECEPTIVELY easy, but when you try & do the damn questions, they stump you upside down. My sister's gonna give me tuition on the damn topic tomorrow. I hope I'll be enlightened.

I made hand rolls today! They were my first attempt, so they didn't look very professional, but you could tell they were makis. Haha. Made them for the picnic in the evening. Went with my family to East Coast Park after picking my mom up from her yoga class at Eastpoint. I was in NTUC shopping for drinks, when I saw Jordan! Hmm, he didn't look so much like part of the peeping-tom gang today. Lol.

The picnic was okay. Tons of mosquitoes though, horrid.

There's something I'm s'pposed to blog about concerning yesterday, but I forgot what. Stupid memory of mine.

Very tired eh. Been feeling lethargic the past few days. I shall go and drink some chicken essence sometime.

Omg, just saw the report on television about Century Square having male pole-dancers to attract female shoppers! The area is closed off for women only, and the male dancers strip to their shorts/boxers and one of them chucked this girl under her chin, and she trailed her hand down his arm with this sultry look on her face! And she's younger than me!! My brother said I was bound to like the show. -_- Sorry, I like guys but not male pole-dancers! That's ewww.

McDonald's open 24 hours now. I don't mind going there to study overnight, but that isn't going to be very possible since the new term's starting already.

Promos are nearing even as I type. Arghhh!

I can't wait for 2007! I'll be going to Korea with Karen chingoo then! I think we should be going in the summer? Very excited. I can't wait for Prom after A levels either! The feeling of pampering yourself, "dieting", shopping, putting on makeup and feeling gorgeous after months of studying your ass off and eating junk food and the stress of the exams... it just blows you away. Haha.

I'm thinking too far ahead. I'm still a puny (well, not exactly) Year One, with my Promos to pass (and pass well) and tough trainings to undergo, and I'm fantasizing about Prom and 2007. Priorities, priorities...

After Promos, I'm going to catch a movie, celebrate my birthday, go town, shop, put on nice clothes. And most importantly, build up my stamina which is rapidly deteriorating, and start shooting faster. Gotta work doubly hard if I want to make it into A div!

Gonna do my mindmap for Labour & Wage Determination now. So sleepy. Ack.

Annyong~!

Apparently my pathetic attempts at dieting, were just that. Pathetic attempts. Because I was reading 8days, and the way those celebs diet is super scary. Did you know Carina Lau only eats 2 mouthfuls of rice a year?! Is that even humanly possible! Probably an exaggeration, but it can't be very far from the truth. And for some of the celebs, if they put on a kg or two, they start getting "edgy". Me? I've put on three kg since May or so, and honestly, I couldn't care less. Haha. I will however, try not to snack. Gah. Apparently Fiona Xie does not really watch what she eats, and doesn't diet. She doesn't even weigh herself. And hello, she has still managed to maintained that toned, pert physique of hers.

Life ain't fair, no siree.

The Converse sale was pretty alright. The white jersey shorts only came in 2XL, and nothing less. I had to buy red. Shucks. There were PINK ones for sale, a whole rack of them, actually. How absolutely disgusting. Whoever wears pink jersey shorts?! (No offense to anyone who does actually wear them)

Er... the bill came up to more than $50, so we were entitled to shoot hoops, and if you got two balls and above in, you could get a prize or something. Sounds easy yeah? But there's this net thing above the hoop, so your ball has to go in an almost straight line if you want it to get in. With a flaming face and pounding heart, I went to try it out. Needless to say, all my balls bounced right off the top of the net. It was horribly embarrassing. Once, it even landed on top of the net. I can only hope nobody I know was watching or seriously, I can just die now.

Oh, today's Yusho's birthday, just remembered! Happy birthday! :)

Caught Villa Wellness on telly yesterday. Quite a nice show actually. But somehow, all I can remember of it is Jon Jonsson appearing at the villa... then taking off his white tee shirt... those rippling muscles... entering the jacuzzi....

Teehee. Just kidding. But he is EFFING EFFING hot. Oh man. He has this rosiness on his golden, sun-kissed, bronzed skin, and his burnished-gold hair is sexily windswept, and his lips are so kissable!!!

I hope I don't sound like some sex-starved bimbo. Lol.

As I was saying, VW is a nice show! Quite motivational? And as always, its fun to see them bitch about each other.

Must remember to watch PRIDE on Channel U. Looks like quite a good show.

Fighting is so passive. How are we ever going to progress?!

I woke up this morning, suddenly yearning to blog, but not in LJ, but in Blogger. So I changed my mind; I'm returning to blogspot. Maybe for good, maybe for not. I've never had a black background before, but it looks pretty nice yeh? I absolutely adore the picture, found it on getty.

There's a very nice song by Jay Chou, called Yi Lu Xiang Bei. Its from the Initial D soundtrack. :)

Ah, going to TM later with mom & my bro. I haven't studied today, save me! Shall study after blogging.

I remember how, during the days of freeopendiary, Chingy and I would create our own layouts for other users of FOD. We set up a joint account and put up all our layouts. I loved making my own layouts... playing with all the graphics, HTML codes and manipulating it into something unique and representative of myself. Sad to say, I didn't pursue the interest I had in that, and now I've clean forgotten everything I acquired. Maybe when I've too much time, I'll go relearn everything? But that's doubtful, because I still have an unfinished sosul waiting for me to write, places I want to go, things I want to do. Not to mention exams I have to study for.

Twenty days left. Hwaiting!