I'm crushed. My hopes, dreams, desires have all been cruelly crushed like they were a worthless pile of... broken glass.

Why? Why is life so unfair?

WHY MUST JIANYI FALL FOR XIAOQIAN?!!

SHE IS IRRITATING & WEARS TOO MUCH MAKEUP & HER STUPID ACCENT IS SO GRATING!!! WHAT IN THE WORLD DOES MY CUTE, KIND JIANYI SEE IN THE LIKES OF THAT DDONG!!

WHY WHY WHY?!!!

He's crazy!! I want to kill him so badly right now. My poor Yoyo, abandoned and cast aside... T____T Life is so frigging unfair.

I cannot sleep tonight. This is so ridiculous. The way things are going, I almost wish Lulu & Martin can return. At least they were tons better than seeing Xiaoqian try her best but still failing horrendously, to seduce David who likes her Mom (EW?!). Although if I was David, I'll totally choose XQ's mom over her anyday. That irritating girl! And David is so disgusting. Yuck, yuck, yuck! Die everybody, die!!

Oh my goodness... I really hope Jianyi realises his fatal error and follows his heart... and that it will lead him to Yoyo, and not her mom or something.

Rainbow Connection is a freaking dumb show, with useless, stupid subplots. Jianyi and Yoyo, together with Xiangnan and Dajun were the only saving graces. Now even Jianyi and Yoyo aren't going to be together. I really don't care about Xiangnan or Dajun. Aish!! It's supposed to be a dancing show, so WHERE IS THE DANCING????

Growl.

Went out with my family yesterday. We had lunch/dinner at Crystal Jade. Oooh I love their xiaolongbao. Its so goood! And their red bean pancakes are yummy too. ^__^

Was s'pposed to go shopping in town, but my unni hates the crowds there on weekends, so we ended up at the shopping mall in Woodlands. I forgot what its called. All we bought were bath towels. -___- It was fun at the household section though.

Had training this morning. My stomach gave me problems again. But after awhile, the pain faded. I thought I was a bit weird today. Haha. We ran up & down eleven flights of stairs, twice, but I didn't really feel exhausted. Eh, maybe it was because of my not-so-good mood. Went to Bugis after training with Zying, where I spent a long-ass time in the toilet of Parco, finally managing to lao-sai a bit. After that, went to the National Library. Zying went into the reference section first, and I sat myself down on the nice toilet bowl again. Lao sai-ed ALOT. It was really disgusting, and I had to keep flushing the toilet periodically, to ensure the smell didn't diffuse throughout the air. Lol. Did some research on Germany for History after finishing my business. Haha. Met Karen chingoo!!! So happy, its great to see her again. Aigoo, must hang out soon!! And girl, I saw a bunch of Korean teens at Somerset station today. One of them had poufy hair, that reminded me of Cha Taehyun in Crazy First Love. Hahaha!

Had Subway at Cineleisure after that, and we saw Emmalyn's friend AGAIN. The Andy Lau guy. I think Zying & I have seen him four times already. And its always at Cineleisure. Puahaha. Took a cab down to Braddell Heights CC after that, to be a scoreboard flip-per for the ladies' matches taking place. Lingyun won Kaixuan! And RJC won their opponents. Wow, the RJ people are really fast! Watching them play, and knowing we may be seeing them at A div's next year, has fuelled my determination to train harder. Must work towards my own personal goals, as well as BBGT's goal! Aja!

Rest day tomorrow. I still haven't come up with my study timetable. -__-" Hmm, I like the Periodicals section of the reference section in the National Library. Lots of interesting magazines. Wanna go back there and read for leisure sometime.

That's all for today! Annyong~!

I'm a freaking loser! I spent my entire day online reading fanfics, rewatching The Guy was Muhshesuh, downloading Korean MVs, Shinhwa dance battles... Aigoo. I'm wasting my life away.

I really, really need to start on my homework. There's only a month left till school reopens! WHY SO FAST?? After the holidays, we're going to have to go back to school, and sit through lectures, tutorials, then start studying our asses off for A LEVELS. WHY? WHY IS EVERYTHING FLASHING BY SO FAST? ASFAG$*Y(@Y%RJH$*@&$U$@)(!!!

Why can't I live in South Korea, where there are hot ggangpaes, and the people there do not seem to study? Why can't I live in South Korea and incur the wrath of some hot uhljjang/iljeen, who ends up falling in love with me because I am too cute??? WHY?

Here's why:
#1. I live in Singapore, where there are only Ah Bengs.
#2. If I don't study here, I don't think I can do anything else because I'm not particularly talented enough to set up some successful business.
#3. I probably COULD incur the wrath of an uhljjang... BUT//
#4. He will not fall in love with me because I am NOT cute, at all. I'll probably irritate the hell out of him, till he unleashes his fanclub upon me to kill me.

I should stop reading fanfics. At the age of seventeen, I'm still immersed in my own fantasy world, and I think reality is falling further away from me. *HELP*!!

Plus, I'm balding. Argh!!

Okay lah, will start on work next week! Shall draw up a timetable tomorrow. I'm a damn procrastinator. Feel like kicking myself off to Timbuktu! Sheesh.

Hahaha, just now I was watching some dance thing on this Korean variety show called Xmen, then they called on for this guy, and I thought I heard "Kim Jong Il." Imagine KJI dancing. Puahaha.

Woke up this morning, and happily hopped into the toilet and pooed till I thought the toilet bowl was going to overflow. Was very happy as pooing so much would mean my stomach wouldn't bulge anymore. Immediately after that, my stomach began hurting like hell. <___< Aish. Nothing I did would make the pain go away. Sat on the toilet bowl just now, and tried to poo the discomfort out, but nothing came out. Damnit.

Two people whom I merely know by sight added me on Friendster. One is Guoyao from Dunman, and the other one is Gary from NY. When I saw that "Yao" added me on Friendster, I thought it was Zhiying's VJ guy who looks like Yaoming. Lol.

Aish. I'm going to sleep now.

I'm the strangest person, sometimes. When morning rolls around, I forget past emnities (sp?) and I am at peace again. I never took anger management courses, and trust me, my temper in the past was horrid. But as I grow older, I find myself growing smarter (not academics-wise though, T__T), less violent, more calm. And for that, I am thankful.

"Let he who be without sin, cast the first stone."---- A quote I heard from the Bible, or something like that. This is so true. And I confess myself a little disappointed, but largely amused. Amused at humans' fraility, their insensitivity, their notion of "I can do it to you, but you cannot do it to me."

Just a little reflection on my part. I like to enter deep-thinking mode at times, puahaha.

Harry Potter yesterday was alright. I was neither disappointed nor wow-ed. The best actor was Ralph Fiennes, then Daniel Radcliffe, and perhaps Rupert Grinth after him. My sister is a huge fan of RF, after watching him act in Red Dragon. I must say, he is good. But I thought Voldemort could've been a tad calmer. He reminds me of Dumbledore's character. Always steady, always solemn. Never in a rush for anything. So the fact that the Voldemort in the story shouted & yelled a little, disturbs me somewhat. Emma Watson was the absolute worst. I felt like SMACKING her throughout the whole show. Even without knowing the character of Hermione Granger, one can actually tell that HG isn't supposed to be over-reacting, crying at the least thing, and talking as if she needs a whole load of oxygen. Annoying as hell. And her hair... Let's just say Hermione's current "bushy" hair looks shinier and prettier than mine. -_-" Rupert Grinth ain't as funny anymore. And neither are the boys acting as Fred & George. And the girl playing Cho Chang looked as if she wanted to cry when she rejected Harry. Gaah! What is it with the girls in Harry Potter the movie and crying?

Daniel Radcliffe did a wonderful job. His acting has improved loads, and he's really much more comfortable now. He's one of the few people who managed to save the movie, together with the special effects. Dumbledore was alright. I think the director was trying to portray DD as an unorthodox, but kindly Headmaster. I don't think DD was as bad as the others said him to be, but I definitely prefer the old DD. Cedric Diggory reminds me of Austin from Project Runway. Lol. Viktor Krum was hot!

Overall.. it was okay. But I hope Peter Jackson can do Order of the Phoenix & Half-blood Prince. He HAS to do HPB.

Okay, that's all for today folks!

Listening to Shinhwa's Angel right now. God, I absolutely love that song. I think their seventh album is one of their best, if not their best. Shinhwa Changjo! (Whatever Changjo means)

Yesterday was training in the morning, followed by class chalet. It was mighty fun. We rented bikes for the entire afternoon and night, and cycled our asses off. Literally. I love night cycling. The sun was nowhere to be seen for the whole of yesterday (and today too, it seems). So the weather was really chilly. During night cycling, Chantel and I were singing our heads off. Fun! Hahaha. We always played this card game called "Piggy". I love it! Muahaha. Slept for about three hours. Zzzz. Very tired. Wish more of our classmates could've come for the chalet. Sigh. As it was, I did enjoy myself!

Today's Elaine's & Louis' audition for the Singing Superstar thing. Is that what the competition's called? I have faith in them! Especially Elaine; she can sing very well!! Heard two other people from my school got through. Hmm, can't wait to see 'em on television.

Waaah. My muscles are aching badly from cycling so much. Watching HP tonight. I'm determined to enjoy the movie, and not compare it to the book. The actors and crew put in so much, its the least I can do! Excited!

Unni baked brownies. They're yummy save for the walnuts. I don't like nuts in my cookies/brownies, oddly. I can't wait for my mom to teach me how to cook peanut soup with chicken feet!

And, happy belated birthday to Joel! <3

Alright. Going to eat my lunch now. Annyong~

P.S. Bob's N90 is absolutely divineeeee

Indeed, indeed. And I could say the same thing back to you, Mr.

In secondary school, Ching Lam, like everyone else, called me ** (Haha, you guys know what.) I really didn't mind, but somehow, when I said that her hair looked like _____ (Again, you guys know what) she got really furious. And because of the unfairness of it all, I bawled my eyes out on the staircase of the new block on Level 2.

And don't worry Chingy, I didn't become psychopathic, and suddenly get angry over that matter. It doesn't have anything to do with you.

It scares me to know that certain people who laugh and joke on the outside, and tease & make fun of you, could actually do all that, but on the inside, they may be thinking another thing entirely. Remember the Grace incident, girls? That's what I'm talking about. I swore never to commit such a grave mistake again.

Now it seems as if God has sent me another reminder. Thank you.

Something Angelo said to the Provost in Measure for Measure, and that I clearly, clearly remember. He told the Provost that if he wasn't going to follow his orders, and arrange Claudio's execution, then the Provost could jolly well turn in his badge and quit his job right then. Right next to that line, there was a note, "If you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen." Of course, it doesn't entirely apply to every situation, but in this case, it does. We do unto others, what others do unto us. I'm just disappointed that he does not treat me as a friend, the way I do, him.

So to him. If you don't want me to say such things... then YOU don't say such things to me. Because then, I'd take it as we were close & can talk, banter about anything.

I won't say I'm not entirely blameless. But I am not unreasonable. If that's the way you want it, then I shall accomodate you.

I am Melissa, and nothing is ever going to change that.

I'm so absolutely stupid. I dragged myself out of bed this morning, at 6.30am, after a meagre 5 or 6 hours of sleep, and went to school in a daze, thinking Math lecture started at 8am. Met Chee Hui on the way, who informed me that she was having Chemistry lecture at 8am. Realized I came to school a whole hour earlier. Gah! Sat at the benches outside LT 4. No one I knew was there, so I took out my Econs notes and started reading. I was half asleep lah. The sun was very nice at first, so it felt very comfortable. Then it got too hot. Blah.

Training started at 6pm, and ended around 9pm. O___O Was supposed to have dinner out, but I lost my appetite. I reached home around 10.30pm. Showered, then watched the rest of DJG, before collapsing onto my bed. Training yesterday was pretty fun. Ms. Tang trained us. We had this obstacle thingy, where our Lingyun seniors formed three or fours rows of two defenders each. Three of us at a time, had to break past the defense to score at the opposite side. We were given five minutes. I like that sorta thing. ^^

I need to come up with a study timetable. If not, I'll never get any studying or my holiday homework done. Trainings have increased to three times a week. On top of that, we've got our basketball camp, alumni stuff to organize, and stuff to make for the CCA bazaar in 2006. And on top of that, I have to start revising, or start learning, actually, J1 Math topics. Since I got an F for my Promos, I have to take a sub-paper on the first Saturday of next year. I must pass it!! Then there's that History assignment, Literature reading thing, the Oliver Twist movie we have to watch and Economics project to do.

I'm really looking forward to the end of the A levels. I've got a feeling I won't be able to even breathe when 2006 starts. Trainings for A division, studying... That's going to be my 2006 life. Ahhh. Melissa hwaiting!

After A levels, I'm going to work my ass off to earn money for my trip to Korea in 2007 with Karen chingoo. ^___^ Yesterday, I was fantasizing about what we were going to do there. Shopping's a must. I want to sit in those food tents, drink soju and eat those side dishes. Okay, maybe scrap the soju. I doubt I can handle it. I cannot wait! *Jumps around*

Watching Harry Potter next week, probably! Can't wait for class chalet, but it'll be more of a bonding session for us girls. I don't think the guys are staying over.

Alrighty. Going to sleep now. Annyong!

I'm so bored right now. Just finished watching DJG... this episode isn't very exciting. I want to see more of JG+MJH!!

My banner for my fanfiction is done! All that's left is my poster!! I hope Lolita can get it done!! Here's the banner:



Christine made me a matching avatar. I love it! If you observe closely enough, you can see Im Soojung & So Ji Sup's face behind the words.



Pretty stuff, huh! Lalala. I need to do Econs homework for tomorrow. But the sight of the two long articles I have to read makes me feel like snuggling under my covers and sleeping, till its time to go for training. :(

Harry Potter's out! But I'll probably be watching it next week, since theatres won't have any good seats left after all the bookings. Can't wait! Class chalet's next week too. Yay! ^^

Mmm, my babysitting charge's arriving tomorrow. Kinda excited, but I hope she won't be a brat or anything.

What's your one ultimate goal in life?

I've always thought about this, and my answer has always been the same. It's never changed, which makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me. My ultimate goal in life is to find a man that I will fall in love with, forever. Our love will be fulfilling and unselfish. We'll meet because we were destined to do so, and when I meet him for the first time, my heart will race, all on its own. It will not be governed by my brain. Love is when you learn how to use your heart, and not your brain. My heart will race of its own accord, not because my brain is registering nervousness or excitement, and thus, inducing my heart to beat faster. That's love.

I think my sister once asked me if I believed in love at first sight. I told her no. To my extreme astonishment, I found out that she believes in love at first sight. And this coming from my 19 year old sister, who's practical to a fault, took up accounting because of the monetary prospects, only ever cried over Stairway to Heaven & A Moment to Remember, and nothing else. I'm the one with the fairytale world I've built up for myself, not her. So when she said she believed in love at first sight, you can understand my confusion. She then said that, some people were just meant to be together. And she gave me the example of Colin Raye's "One Boy, One Girl." Interesting indeed.

I don't have any strong career goals. I'm okay with anything I do, as long as I enjoy my job and it earns me enough money to support me and my parents. I could be a teacher, or a events co-ordinator, or a journalist... Whatever. But when it comes to love, I have such high expectations of it. My motto? The best, and nothing else. I'd rather find a person I truly love, than settle for someone substandard, because he has money or something. If that's the case, I'd rather continue to search. I'd rather be alone.

Mr. Jeow once asked me this question: Would I marry a char kway teow seller who is poor, but whom I love, or a rich businessman whom I have platonic feelings for. I told him I'd marry the charkwayteow man. And I still would. Money can be earned, but the love that my charkwayteow seller & I share, is something that cannot be built up with the rich businessman. Is this impractical? Perhaps, but this IS love we're talking about. Love never was practical.

Okay, enough of my musings. I'm going to make my sister cook noodles for me now. ^__^ Annyong!

Phwoar. I just finished chapter three of my new fic. I think its going alright so far. Mmm.

Yesterday, I saw this pretty spaghetti top at Fox while out with Mark, Zying, Zhongzheng & Eric in Suntec. Zhiying & I wanted to buy one each, but they only had one last piece in our size. So we thought we'd go to the Marina Square outlet, but they didn't even have the top. -_- Went to TM just now to see if the Fox outlet there carries it, but they don't have it either. Asked my sister, who was at Suntec, to help me buy it if she sees it, but she says it isn't there.

This seems like I "you yuan wu fen" with the top. *Kicks a stone around* IT WAS REALLY PRETTY & IT FIT VERY WELL! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN TO ME????

Oh well. My baby-sitting job is starting soon. I need moolah for shopping! Thinking of calling up the banquet thing, but I'll probably only be free to work on weekends. Lalala, we'll see how it goes.

My poster & banner for my new fic are taking forever. At this rate, I'll never get to post my fic up. Aigooo.

Going to shower now then either sleep or do some work. Annyong~

Yesterday, I dreamt that I was 70+kg, and if I put on anymore weight, I would be 80kg, and that prospect was horrifying! Ugh. This must definitely be a sign for me to start losing some fats. Wait, scratch that. ALOT of fats.

Anyway, went to school in the morning yesterday for Econs & Maths makeup lectures. After that, Yizhen, Zying & myself went to J8 to watch JUST LIKE HEAVEN!!!! Oh man, it is such a wonderful, fantastic, unrealistic but oh-so-romantic movie!! It's definitely a must-watch. Aigooo. I just love the whole theme about love and destiny. I find the idea of destiny very beautiful. Probably because it happens to very little people? I want to be one of those people! Sigh. The show has its comic elements too. I don't know how 8days could give it such a low rating. The ending was a little rushed, but overall, I'd say it deserves 3.5/5 stars! Mark Ruffalo and Reese Witherspoon make a good couple. I wanna see more of Mark Ruffalo!

Went back to school for training after that. Had difficulty breathing after I ran the three rounds, and it didn't stop at all, till everything was over. Maybe I ate my lunch too late. Got rebuked by jiaolian quite a few times, cos I was quite unfocused, so I didn't pass properly. Sigh!

Anyway, I saw Hoeseng yesterday, playing tennis at the court in my school!! Ahhh! Was so happy to see him. ^^ But he was quite shy or something. He didn't come over to talk to me. Oh well. Hope we can meet up soon and have a nice long chat!

Going to the library later with Zying to do research for my History assignment. Going for tea with Eric & Mark, and probably a few others in the afternoon. Yay. (: Mark's flying off to Australia soon, and won't be going for class chalet. :( Jamie's already in Australia! Dari's leaving for Vietnam this Thursday. Bon voyage!

asdf$@*$^@($& Minwoo is SO hot!!!! I'm on fire. Wait, he should be the one on fire. Aish!!! And he's got a new album, Bump. I wonder if its out in local stores yet. I love his hair & his impish grin. <3

Okay lah, gotta run now. Annyong!

I'm existing in a state of limbo right now. Sleep deprivation has taken its toll on me. And Adrian Pang is irritating the hell out of me on television. The stupid fool can't decide who he likes. Seriously, why two women who are both reasonably good-looking, would fall for his character, amazes me. Gaah. I'm feeling grumpy.

Basketball chalet was pretty okay. I guess we got to interact more with the guys, and it was nice to harbour similar mean thoughts about people with the girls. I really love my team-mates man. Every single one of them is so special and simply beautiful in their own way. Training is more enjoyable because of them. My impetus to perservere is because of them. I love you girls! :)

Ai Ling, Elaine, Huiwen, Yizhen, myself, together with Scott and Wenyong walked a long-ass way to find a coffeeshop for supper. I suspect people in Pasir Ris aren't really humans, because they said that the distance from Downtown East to Drive 6 is relatively okay. It was far from okay, it was like a damn marathon! -__-"

The guys and some of us girls didn't sleep the entire night, and we shared stupid jokes, and then Scott decided to talk about peeing. He was asking if us girls got irritated when guys didn't put the seat of the toilet bowl down after peeing. I said yes, because I fell into the toilet bowl once (not all the way lah) when my brother didn't put the seat back down. I don't understand why everyone laughed at me, because it was in the middle of the night, and I was barely awake. Anyway, his question got them started on machine guns & relative velocity. Puahaha.

We went out to walk after that. Walked in the park, and we went up to this open space. The girls & the guys were sitting seperately, then we were all bored. The guys started singing the Ah Niu song-- "Dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai..." Yeah, that. It was so funny. They sang Shao Nian for us too. Haha. Sometimes they can be very nice, and other times, I doubt they see us as girls. We managed to watch a pseudo sunrise. It was actually the sky turning light. But oh, it was a utterly beautiful sight to behold. Was immensely regretful that I didn't bring my camera out. I love the air in the morning, when it's brisk and chilly, and biting at your bare legs. Mmmm.

Yay, Love Story in Harvard is on tomorrow & Sunday! And there's DCG tonight. Missed yesterday's episode. :( Can't wait for Daisy to come out in cinemas next year. JJH & JWS have excellent chemistry, albeit of a sexual nature.

The days are flying by too quickly. Tomorrow I shall get started on work.

In awhile more, I'll be off for the basketball chalet! Quite excited. ^^

Lost my purse yesterday. My EZ-Link card and about twenty bucks were inside. Sigh. My EZ-Link card had no money though. Sigh. Going to make a new card later.

Anyway, the friendly with NUS yesterday was quite alright. We drew with them, 37-all. It was quite a good experience, but I was kinda disappointed in myself, cos I fumbled with simple catches. Never mind, practice makes perfect! The NUS players were all rather tall and big-sized. I enjoy defending them, cos when you defend them, their bodies are unmovable, because they are so solid, so I can take a rest by almost sitting on them. Lol, I don't know if I'm making sense. I think my defense yesterday was alright. But I kept defending man-to-man, instead of playing zone defense. Hmm, must remember.

Ooof. Might be going to Sentosa next week with the girls. Yipeee. ^^ Better start on my holiday homework tomorrow.

Yesterday's OP was alright. The skit went smoothly, thank goodness. Q&A wise, I think my group did really well, compared to the other two groups present. The teacher in charge of PW wanted us to do a second presentation again in the afternoon, because she wanted to film it. Unfortunately, we kept laughing during the skit. We thought she'd allow us to do a retake for the film, but apparently, she didn't intend to. And I felt so stupid presenting to the camera and no one else.

I love Dae Chang-geum! Ahhh. The best thing is, it had a whopping 70 episodes!! Muahaha. More chances to see Ji Jin Hee! He's coming to Singapore on the 3rd of December! But I'm not going to see him at the airport like the other time I did with Lee Byung Hun, because number one, I only like him with a mustache & a beard, and I know he probably won't be having either, and number two, I didn't even know of him before DCG, and number three, I still feel waves of embarrassment everytime I recall screaming "Ahjusshi!" at LBH, and climbing up the barrier to get a better look at him. =__= Hahaha. I will only do that for LBH, SSH or KSW. Or Bi. Or So Ji Sup. No one else. And maybe Christopher Lee. Ahaha.

Alright, I better go shower now. Annyong~!

Hoho, am rather excited. Going to post my new fanfiction up on Soompi soon! Either today or tomorrow, depends on how long Joan (Soompier) takes to get the poster for my fanfic done. Although I've only written about two chapters, and haven't decided whether I ought to do a prologue for it. Haven't done this since S&D. Speaking of S&D... I should continue with it. Hmm.

Gotta go to school later on for a final practice for OP. And I still have to complete my I&R. Have about another 250+ words to go. After that, I shall continue writing my fanfic!

The friendly with NUS is tomorrow, together with training. Aish, hope I survive it all. Somehow, I feel that I don't push myself hard enough during trainings. I constantly have to remind myself to perservere, and not give up. The three rounds are no longer that much of a killer, but I definitely have to do extra training on my own, if I want to build up my stamina. Yesterday, I didn't eat alot! I had zhuchangfen for breakfast, porridge for lunch, which is like drinking water because about an hour before training my stomach was empty. Had to buy a packet of biscuits to sustain myself, but even then, there was this grinding sensation in my stomach all the time. And I had rice for dinner. Yes, it's what a normal person eats right? Very happy I didn't snack. I hope my appetite diminishes soon. According to Belinda, I should drink water everytime I feel hungry between meals.

Can't wait for Thursday! And since the friendly has been postponed to tomorrow, I can go out with the girls for the whole day on Friday. Yipeeee. Cannot wait.

Alright, better start planning my holiday timetable soon. I want to go to the museum with the Vatican showcase, but I've no idea if its still around. Mmm. And I want to go to the zoo & ice-skating as well!!

Oh no, I can't find my cue cards for speech for OP!! Why in the world am I always so disorganized??? Zzzzz!!

Here's the game. Introduce 10 quirks or idiosyncrasies of yours on your blog, following which you are free to pick five more people to do the same thing.

[info]clride (Karen chingoo), picked me, so I'm doing this.

1. I talk & kick people in my sleep.
2. I always mumble to myself without realising I do so.
3. I believe that love needs destiny.
4. I have to leave rice behind on my plate after I finish my meal.
5. I'm old-fashioned at times, and behave in very auntie ways.
6. I always feel hungry.
7. I will use Korean words mixed with English at home.
8. I cry easily.
9. I cannot follow, I have to lead.
10.I have a mean mouth that I hope I don't use too often.

"Pick five more people:"

Um.. whoever else wants to do this?

Went kayaking opposite my house (Bedok Reservoir) yesterday afternoon. Its tough man! Especially for someone like me with weak arm strength. I got a tan just paddling away for twenty five minutes. If it were longer I'll probably become a roasted pig. Karen chingoo, come over some day & we can kayak! But I think we have to take lessons or something first.

Came home, and watched Love Story in Harvard. It's not bad so far. I think Kim Taehee is cute! But she looks like an alien sometimes. Her eyes are huge. Her English's good too, and so is the other girl's. Funnily enough, all the Korean girls on the show so far have good English, whereas the Korean men... Oh man. Kim Raewon's really bad. Haha. But he must've taken a long time to speak those words, except it looked as if he was reciting when he had to say large chunks of words. Don't like the other guy there. Kim Raewon's so much better than him!! Not in terms of speaking English though.

Spent the rest of my day yesterday reading My PingPongBoy by Amaranth a.k.a Moe. Really good story!! I wish I could just write in dialogues all the time, with only short descriptions... but I cannot. I need to pay attention to details, and most of the time, I'm so long-winded. And my dialogue's always proper, more or less. Save for Heart's Serenade, where Eunsang always cussed. Hoho, when Korean guys cuss, they look hot. But in Singapore, you'll just feel disgusted. Why? Hmm.

Alright, off to finish MPPB! Annyong!

Aigoo, why doesn't Dae Jang Geum screen on weekends?? I'm already missing it. There is a very, very hot guy inside the drama, who reminds me of Takeshi Kaneshiro.


He plays Min Jung-ho in Dae Jang Geum; Jang Geum's love interest (& vice versa), and is a court official.

He's called Ji Jin Hee, and he's married with a son! He's seventeen years older than me, which makes him thirty four. He doesn't look old in an aging way, does he? I think he's got this very masculine appeal; everything about him, from his posture to his voice, to the glint in his eyes, beholds a distinguished air, and speaks of maturity and sensibility. However, he looks much more attractive with his facial hair. One of the very few men that do.


Posing for an advertisment.

He doesn't look quite as good, huh? From some angles he TOTALLY resembles Ekin Cheung. I think that's the name of that HK actor. Aye, Mr. Ji Jin Hee, you should keep your facial hair!

Yesterday, the girls came over. Tanning session was scrapped since the sun was nowhere to be seen. We watched the VCD of our performance for Musical Nite at some Pasir GRC thingy in 2001. Omg, it was hilarious. Chingy was screaming all the way, and so was I. We were poking fun at each other, and laughing at our own geeky, non-human selves. Seriously, we look SO different. It's almost scary/painful to look at myself in 2001. Puahaha. Watched Princess Diaries after that. Sigh. I love that movie.

Went to meet BBGT at Plaza Sing in the evening for dinner, and to celebrate Elaine's birthday!! Haha, it was really funny. Part of the boys' team came too. Us girls were sitting at PastaMania, then Louis appeared with Elaine's first cake: Fish cake! Elaine was horrified, I think. After that, Jasmine Lu popped out with an orange chiffon cake with its price tag still on: $2! Wahaha. Roy finally came with her REAL cake; some chocolate cream cake with Hello Kitty on it. It was really funny. Took some pictures, will load them up some time!

Realized that its time to hit the books again, or I will never make it next year. Went to the library today and borrowed some books. I would've borrowed romance novels again, if not for my mother being there to curb my romantic impulses. Hahaha. She only allowed me to borrow one romance novel by Nora Roberts. Which seriously stinks. Sandra Brown is still the best. I borrowed "Birthday Letters" by Ted Hughes. Can't wait to start on it. I hate Ted Hughes by the way. Just thought it'd be interesting to see his view on Sylvia Plath's suicide, and his opinion of their marriage and its end. Chi. Men.

Yay, basketball chalet next week, from Thursday to Saturday! Might be going out with the girls on Friday, but we've got a friendly with NUS. BBQ's on Thursday night! Yizhen suggested going for a midnight movie to watch Just Like Heaven! Cannot wait!! OP's next week as well. It kinda slipped my mind. Sheesh.

Oh goodness. Mr. Kellett is a slave-driver!! Just saw our holiday assignment on Litespeed. It's to be a FIVE-PAGE History Essay on Europe, handwritten or typed out. That's the minimum. T___T Five pages is crazy. May the brains of Norman and that guy from A7A bless me.

Other than that, there are makeup lectures to attend, basketball trainings... I feel my holidays slipping away from me already. I am determined not to waste my holidays away this time round! Shall start studying next week, and become an organized, efficient person. I ought to clear the junk in my cupboard for a start.

Things to do:

-Card
-Finish Birthday Letters, A Date with Satan & Minding Children (no, it isn't a book on childcare)
-Watch DJG & wait for LSIH to start!!
-Plan study timetable
-Save $$$
-Attend ALL holiday lectures
-Start on King Lear
-Find out more about the poet guy Chaucer
-Complete holiday assignments
-Start cleaning the house
-Eat less

I'm talking to Karen chingoo on MSN now, and she's relating to me her exciting life at NYP. Okay, okay. She's telling me about her experience with her crush!! It is frigging exciting, muahaha.

Aigoo. I am so sleepy & tired, yet I am trying my hardest to resist the temptation of my bed. Because I want to continue my fanfiction; it's rare that I'm on a roll to write, I usually write in short spurts. So when I'm on a roll, I better seize the chance, and write as much as I can. Secondly, I want to watch Jewel in the Palace at 10pm on Channel 55. Yes, I've got 55!! But only for two months though. I just want to watch LSIH (Love Story in Harvard). Jewel in the Palace is nice though! I like the young Chang-keum & her friend, especially. Ahh!

I've been having stomachaches ever since the cheesecake at NYDC the day before. Kept pooing. Ughh. Public holidays are kind of bad, for me. I woke up this morning, rewatched Jewel and a bit of Discovery, National Geographic, then had lunch. After that, I went to take a nap (!!!). Woke up, showered, then went to TM with my parents and bro. Bought a stack of construction paper from Popular! Very excited, I want to start doing some projects soon! I don't know what kind of projects yet though. Haha. Bought pizza back for dinner... Yes, that about sums up my boring day.

Action-packed day ahead tomorrow! Although I really don't want to go ALL the way to school for the CIP briefing... T___T Going to see my HOTTIES tomorrow!! Aiyahyahyah, cannot waaait! In the evening, going to town to meet **** to ********* KAYA's ********. Hohoho.

Really wanna sleep. :(

Ohhh. I am so hungry. I woke up too late to have breakfast, so I had noodles for lunch. That's all I ate in like, seven hours!! If it were a normal school day, I think I'd have eaten three meals already. Haha.

I have got a fabulous idea for a new fanfic. Spent the major part of my day watching television, sourcing for pictures for my fanfic poster, thinking of what to eat... Lol. Feel like watching Parent Trap, but I've watched that for a gazillion times already.

Am so discinclined to move, and am too hungry to start on my fic.

Maybe I'll go sleep.

Ugh, I've wasted my precious holiday.