I'm bushed. Mentally and physically. I haven't posted a chapter for Encore in five days. Ack. Typed out a little bit of Chapter 10 just now. Doesn't seem very good. Ugh.

Went to school early today, reached around 10.40am. Hmm, a couple of us hung up banners, and prepared the posters for CCA Bazaar. Finally managed to buy Great Expectations from the school bookshop. We left for Cedar at around 12pm.

Training was alright. Did a lot of boring things today. Wasn't really in the mood to train, so I was kind of slack during the match part. Went back to school after that with Huiwen, AiLing, ChinWei, Shona, Zhen & Xinyang to hang up the remaining banners and posters. Didn't know that there was a band concert! Shona's such a sweetie for helping us out. <3

Went to Far East with AiLing, Huiwen & ChinWei after that. Introduced them to Subway! Muahaha. Haven't had that in eons man. Eating it again felt so good! Ahh! We window-shopped in Far East after that, then headed to Wisma to look at AiLing's Quiksilver bags. Lol, she kept saying she wanted to buy a "gay" bag. In the end, she bought a really "macho" looking one. There was a print of an odd thing on it, which resembled a cockroach. Lol. I found a nice backpack to carry to school! It's Reebok, and it's the shape of a turtle. Didn't have enough cash on me, so I'm probably going down tomorrow to buy it. I hope its still there! Had great fun with them. I discovered ChinWei's secretly violent tendencies. Huiwen as usual, was entertaining us with her machine-gun speed of talking. Hehehe.

Looks like I've got countdown plans for tomorrow night after all. But I really don't feel like staying in the town area. Last Christmas was a bad enough experience. Aigoo.

My Lovely Sam Soon is SO awesome!!! Omg. Hyun Bin's dimple is so adorable, and SamSoon is so effing loveable! I really like how she's so plump and that there's not a drop of glamour in her at all. She's a much dowdier version of Jung DaBin in Attic Cat, who was already quite dowdy in that show. And I love it when Kim SunAh's voice goes so low, and the demanding way she says, "Huh?" SamShik's mother is so wacky too. Muahaha. And the girl acting as HeeJin is quite pretty. She's got that sort of rare, glow-y aura about her. She always seems so vibrant. The edges around her seems so soft. Haha.

I cooked spaghetti with tomato sauce today. The spaghetti was oddly chewy. I felt like I was chewing on my tongue. Haha. The sauce was nice though. Yeah yeah, so its from a Prego bottle, but it could totally taste cold and unappetizing right? Haha. I added luncheon meat, chicken and peas in. Not a big fan of peas, but they're bearable.

Went to the National Library with my siblings and Genevieve after that. I headed to the Reference Section while they went to the borrowing section. Managed to finish up on Italy, and did a little bit of Russia. There isn't much of Russia in turmoil during the year 1871 though. Now, I'm just left with 1.75 pages before I complete my History assignment! After that, my Economics project awaits me.

I've got some cash, thinking of what to spend it on. Muahaha. I'm thinking My Lovely SamSoon VCD. But I've got the episodes on my computer. Hmm. I definitely want to visit The Face Shop soon and stock up on oil blotter. My face is going to be the new Middle East soon. Then I can make a fortune out of it. Hur hur.

Alright, going off to finish my History essay. Aja!

Finally starting on my homework. Wow, how early, right? School starts next Tuesday, and here I am, still taking my own sweet time with homework. Well, its better to start then never. Haha. History's giving me a headache. Mr. Kellet's notes don't seem to have anything concrete about the year 1871. I think I'll go to the National Library this Thursday and sit my ass down in the Reference section.

Watched two movies today; Constantine and Mean Girls. Okay, Mean Girls was a repeat, but its really quite addictive. (I didn't just say that, puahaha.) Constantine was good. Keanu Reeves is so utterly hot. ~_^

Listening to Jay Chou's "Hei Se Mao Yi" right now. Just realised that this is the song Elaine keeps singing, and which Huiwen is in love with. And I always thought it was a Lin JunJie song. Hahaha. It's pretty nice.

Class chalet tonight, but I've got an eye infection again. Hope it doesn't swell up. So I can't make it for the chalet tonight. Maybe I'll pop down tomorrow, after training.

My right butt is falling asleep from sitting so long. Gaah. I'm off to take a break. Annyong!

The thing I hate most about holidays, is the fact that they have to come to an end. And we have to return to school. Not that I hate school. It's just that, after almost two months of freedom from any academic-related work, no stress... having to return to the battlefield, armed only with lame excuses as to why you didn't complete your holiday homework, is really something to dread.

But I know once I get into the full swing of things, I'll be loving it.

And I really, really want to drop Maths. It's really no point for me to hang on to that subject, thinking that somewhere along the line I'll start working hard for it. There just isn't time left. Now, I should just concentrate on my three subjects, and do well for them. The only problem is talking my parents round. My mom's convinced that I'm doomed without Maths.

But on the other side of the coin, there are times I like doing Maths. And after ten years or so of struggling with it, and making it everytime during exams, is really something I've gotten used to. If you ask me to stop doing Maths, I'll really feel weird. For one thing, there's never been a time in my life when I wasn't bad at a subject. Not to say I'm super good at my three other subs, but they are manageable. Maths is sort of my "comfort zone" for failing. Haha, am I making sense? Let's just say I'm really used to flunking Maths.

Went out with the girlies today! Minus a very sleepy Belinda. We called her three times at her house, and each time, she said she was waking up, but each time, she went right back to sleep. Sometimes, I really feel as if I'm losing her. I mean, not as in she's dying, but there's just this feeling that she's falling further apart from us. It'll probably be another month till we get to meet again. I want to invite them to my house for lunar NY! Hope all of them can make it. Anyway, it was good fun going out with the babes again. I realised today that we've grown up so much in the past year. The feeling around us is a lot more matured now. Something's changed. We're still as close as ever, but that element of slapstick humor and craziness has diminished quite a bit.

That also got me to realise, that as much as I want, I can no longer act like a kid. I'm going to be eighteen as of next year, and there's just no more excuse to behave so immaturely. Growing up never was easy. So many things change.

2005 has been one of the biggest turning points in my life. For one thing, I went out to work for the first time in my life. Working allowed me to become a lot more independent. One of the reasons why I went to NY was because of this newfound independence. Remember how in secondary school, I refused to take bus 28 home by myself? I always wanted Ching Lam or Felicia to accompany me. Thinking back, its really quite funny how I'd choose to go to a junior college so isolated from the rest of the girls. I didn't know anyone in NY on my first day of school. I went to the school all by myself, attended Orientation without any clue who the people were... joined a CCA that was so unlike anything I've ever known. I met wonderful people like Zhiying and Emmalyn, Joanne, Mark, Joel, my basketball team-mates, and of course, the wonderful 05A5A. All of them are so different in their own special ways. It was the first time I ever got to know a girl who loved rap and Eminem so much (Zhiying). Emmalyn, who isn't the quiet, shy girl I thought she was, and I'm still trying to discover the hidden loony in her. Joanne, who is so black and cute, and so awesomely fit. Mark... who is so weird and entertaining. Joel, who sometimes talks to much, but nevertheless, is a wonderful listener and advisor, and one of the few people with true sincerity. And BBGT, how could I ever begin to describe them? I've never been in any sports for a CCA, and they've really made my first experience doing so, a wonderful one. They are a bunch of wonderful people. Selfless, caring, joking, and yes, our famous quote, "pretty & cute." 05A5A... the first thing that comes to my mind is Jamie, Dahniela and Eileen---> part of the foodie gang. Chantel with her bounciness, Linghui who is so smart, yet so completely friendly and sweet, Reena with her boundless gossip and her speedtalking, the Mushroom gang and their obsession with Mr. Neo, Emily and her totally rad piercings, and funky dress sense, and who happens to be so skinny, but still thinks she has to lose weight (which she really doesn't), Yati and her deluded fantasies of Mongolian royalty, Karen with her highpitched voice and her Yoda-like resemblance, and Ella who's constantly saying "Oh my god, lah" then laughing.

Coming to NY truly was an eye-opener. Firstly, I was exposed to a lot of bitchiness that I could never hope to see in Dunman. My mindset probably broadened too; homosexuality really was foreign to me. After coming to NY, I became more aware of it, and I'm no longer living in my little well, thinking that only straight guys and straight girls existed in this world. Oh, and all that cake. Who could ever forget the countless birthdays we celebrated?

NY may not have swimming pools or large auditoriums. It might not have Subway and air-conditioned classrooms, or even proper lockers. It might not have the best teachers, or even semi-good ones. But what Nanyang did have, was a great principal who has drilled into us the importance of "Yin shui si yuan-ing" and yes, cute boys to oogle at, and a whole lot of love. Now, I truly know that I will miss this "cheena" junior college when I leave it. In Dunman, it was probably a true-blue neighborhood school. You had your smokers, your rebels, your gangsters, and you had the "Top 20 Chiobus" list. In Nanyang, you have the Cheena people. And what's wrong with Cheena? Cheena is good. Cheena is familial, Cheena is cultural, Cheena breeds warmth and love amongst the people of NY. Just today, I met a Nanyang girl in town, and she gave me a wide smile and a friendly wave. And I didn't even know her that well.

The one thing good about schools like Dunman and Nanyang, is that there's room for second chances. So you committed a mistake, a mistake of maybe smoking, and getting caught by the police, or something along those lines. They won't kick you out because of this mistake, in order to preserve their reputation. I'm not saying its wrong of those better schools to do so. Reputation is important. Its just the sort of good reputation you'd like to have. And in Dunman, I really saw, and respected what the principal and Mr. Bernard has done for those people who've made mistakes. Mrs. Edelweiss Neo is one of the best principals one could ever have. And I am very glad I've had the fortune of having her as my principal.

Okay, I think I'm rambling on here. 4C chalet tomorrow! Want to go shopping before that, probably at TM. Alright, off to watch TV. Happy Boxing Day, everybody!

Hello! Today was alright. Woke up and went to the gym for an hour. Something happened to my left ankle while I was on the treadmill. Hurt like hell, but after I walked for another 20 minutes, the pain subsided. Hmm, came home after that and posted two chapters of Encore! :)

Went to my grandma's house this afternoon. Watched MTV VMA. Greenday won three or four awards! Awesome. Chemical Romance performed too. I like their MV for Helena! Realised that the music industry in America is almost dominated by blacks. The host was some black dude, and he was really not funny/entertaining at all. Most of the performances were raps by the black dudes, and really, I didn't understand a single thing. Now I know what Zying means when she said Eminem's one of the clearer rappers. 50 Cent has a hot body! He looks good in his wifebeater.

Omg, my neck was feeling ticklish, then I thought it was my hair brushing against my nape. When I ran my fingers through my hair, a bloody insect came out on my hand!! Yelled my head off, hahaha.

Went out with Jevan just now to shop for presents for the girls. The mall was so crowded, ugh. Met Jasmine Lu at the cake shop outside NTUC! Thanks for the cake.. ^^

Can't wait for tomorrow, lalala.

Hohoho, Santa's in town! Haha. I just poo-ed after what, two to three days? Feels good, but not everything's out yet. I gotta drink more water.

I rented Mean Girls & A Cinderella Story from this little rental shop tucked away further down the road from my house. The shop's really quite awesome. They stock a lot of the latest shows. Maybe I'll go back tomorrow to rent more and open an account with them.

Mean Girls was quite awesome. I have to say this though, Lindsay Lohan's boobs are huge. They're practically spilling out of whatever she wears. Even when she wears oversized shirts, they still look huge. For those who think I'm big, look at Lindsay Lohan first. Now that is big. The guy in Mean Girls is cute! He reminds me of Tom Welling. I've got this thing for whites who have dark brown hair and eyebrows, with green eyes. Mmm. Cinderella Story sucked. And Chad Michael Murray isn't cute at all. He's so scrawny, and his acting is almost as bad as Hilary Duff's. I'm sticking to Lindsay Lohan's flicks.

Dinner was good today, but I've got a huge tummy now to burn off. Tomorrow I'm going to work out! I feel like I've put on a million tons.

I wonder, if I was in an American high school, which seems to be really clique-ish, what kind of clique would I belong to? Not the "popular" ones, as in, a clique like that of the Plastics in Mean Girls. Not the geek/nerd one either, because in shows they only ever seem to talk about homework and calculators. The female jock one perhaps? If there's such a thing. I think I'd be more of the crazy outcast clique. Hahaha. Not really coherent right now. Sleepy and lightheaded.

It's been an uneventful Christmas Eve this year. Did some homework, washed my toilet, wrote my story, penned some letters, watched rented VCDs, ate a huge dinner complete with two slices of mudcake...

Life's good. :)

Gaaah. Am utterly bored out of my wits. Was planning to go down to TM after taking my shower and shop for some stuff. Messaged Dari, asking her if she wanted to accompany me. I discovered she was doing her homework. That about killed my mood for retail therapy. Lol. Sat my ass down to do my History essay, and I'm proud to say I've completed two pages and a quarter of the third page. That roughly leaves three more pages!

I feel like renting a couple of VCDs and watching them tonight, while waiting for midnight to arrive. I want to watch Mean Girls, Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen, A Cinderella Story, Home Alone 1 & 2... Aigoo. I think I'll go to the mall by myself. The XBox has apparently more attractive qualities than myself; that would explain why my brother is staring at the idiot box, refusing my offer to bring him to the mall. Damn kids and their video games.

Still thinking if I should join the Soompi Short Story Battle for January. I'm afraid I won't have time to write a story, seeing as how I will not complete my homework by the 3rd of January, when school reopens.

Hmm, shall go do a bit more of my History, then maybe pop down to the mall. Annyong!

Hohoho, I'm so happy. Went onto Soompi & saw that people were actually reading my one-shot again! Which is the piece I wrote for the RedPill story-writing competition. I thought that story had been relegated to the depths of the Soompi fanfiction thread. Heeheehee. ^___^ And while checking for replies to Encore, I came across this.

"this is seriosuly better than the heart's serenade.

your writing really improved alot

well done mel!"

My face was like -___-" Because The Heart's Serenade really was a piece of crap. It was the shit of the shit. Haha. Yay, so happy. Although I think Encore really is quite confusing, the readers don't really understand the plot. I better express myself better.

Yesterday evening was awesome! I love Chingy. It was really good to see her crazy self once more. Laughter and madcap actions are a guarantee when Ching's around. <3

Got to get Christmas presents for the girls! And Zying & Emma as well. Maybe I'll go to TM later.

Till then, toodles!

"In the depths of winter I finally learned there was in me an invincible summer." - Albert Camus

Hmm, was searching for a new layout. There's really nothing good on blogskins. I was looking for something nice, white and simple. But there really isn't anything. I like the stripey thingy, so I decided to have this.

Conrad's back from Korea! Apparently, it was really fun over there. But I still cannot fathom why people will pay $2000 to go there and suffer! It's OBS!!! Haha. He keeps insisting I have to go there next year, when they organize the thing again. O__O He did mention Dunkin' Donuts though. T___T I wanna try those!

I've got nothing going on tomorrow or on Christmas Day either. I'll probably try to do my homework. Going out with the girls on Boxing Day. Yay. Oh, and I wish it would stop raining, so that I can go to the reservoir and jog. Realised that cross-country is only next month! Better shape up.

Hoho, there's about ten days left to the new semester. Stupid homework's not done. I think I can just about go & die now. Sometimes I really feel like giving up on studying man. To live a life where you're governed by your interests and passions, where you're free to pursue your dreams. But I guess a life like that wouldn't really have much meaning, right? Like that, we wouldn't really cherish anything we have, and we won't be driven to chase our dreams.

Was watching Love Letter (Korean variety show) this morning. It featured Minwoo, Woohyunk and Sung Si Kyung. It was really quite funny. Not that I understood anything. One of the girls caught my eyes. She's very pretty and sweet-looking, and I think Minwoo liked her. Haha. Both of them would make a good match.

Lovers in Paris is screening on Channel U, starting this coming Tuesday! Although I really don't like Park Shin Yang, because he's so old, and reminds me of a duck for some weird reason, at least there's LDG, and the girl looks pretty funny. I want to watch Lovely Kim SamSoon!! Aish. Spring Day looks good too. And Innocent Steps, haha. Hopefully it'll screen on 56 soon. Daisy is opening in theatres next year. I can't wait. Jeon Jihyun and Jung Woosung are so hot together.

My parents want to get my a Christmas present, and I'm s'pposed to think of something I want. However, its already the 23rd, and I haven't thought of anything. I was thinking of getting them to buy me Minwoo's new album, but you'd have to ship that over. Or a Korean drama, but I really don't have time to indulge in dramas now. I wouldn't mind a pair of new running shoes, but you know what the older people and giving shoes as gifts are like.

Have you guys been watching Love Concierge? Alex To is SO cute!! Muahaha. Although he looks perpetually unwashed and smelly, he's still hot. And his English is so good. Wooohooo. I'm liking the characters alot. It's really a relief after watching the stupid Rainbow Connection. Jeez. Zhang Yaodong's acting is surprisingly good, and its nice that he's in a lead role after so long. Ann Kok's acting hasn't deproved, Jacelyn Tay is still fabulous and Fiona Xie... well there's alot of room for improvement, but she's so cute! And I love her dressing. Hehehe.

Okay, guess that's all for now. Chingy's coming over later on to "chill". Hehehe. And I miss Emmalyn! Come back from your theolo soon girl! (And explain to me what a theolo is.)

Hello, I'm back from camp! The first thing I did when I reached home yesterday night was to eat some snacks. Hahaha.

Hmm, camp was alright. It was very... different to be waking up at 6am in the morning, then having to do physical training for two hours. Who could ever forget the four rounds we had to run around the school, and the dreaded slope? I guess we really bonded, and I did enjoy myself, in spite of all the tough trainings. The alumni reunion dinner was a bit of a fiasco in the beginning, because stupid me didn't check the bag that the council gave me, and assumed everything I asked for was inside. Aish. As a result, we didn't have paper plates or cutlery, and Elaine's sister had to help us buy. Must really not be so muddle-headed and irresponsible next time.

Jazz Lee was very nice to us during the camp! She wrote us notes of encouragement and helped us with the setting up of the BBQ too. Love her! :)

Sometimes I think my ideals and beliefs differ alot from other people's... but really, I don't think there's cause to behave in such a way. Oh well, doesn't really matter.

Last training on Wednesday before we break for Christmas! I can't wait to go town and shop, and soak in the whole ambience of Christmas!

Oh, Dad started re-painting the house today. Now one side of the wall is a nice, deep red. I love it! The color's called Spellbound. The other walls are going to be in a nice whitish color called Lily White. Quite pretty!

I can finally watch the final two episodes of Dae Jang Geum tomorrow. Thank goodness there are repeat telecasts on Channel 55. The previous two episodes are forever lost to me, however. :( And its where Min Jungho does archery till his hands bleed! And all for Chang-geum too. So romantic. Good thing I wasn't at home to witness the last episode of the idiotic Rainbow Connection. It's one of the worst shows in Mediacorp history. One of the few times they don't do family-oriented dramas, and this is what happens. But I like Yoyo's psychotic character. I think she's really disturbed. Haha.

School's starting soon, and I am so unprepared for it. Better start completing my work. Have yet to do my Econs and History projects. And I haven't finished King Lear! By the way, Pride and Prejudice is absolutely wonderful! I've got about a quarter left to read. Maybe I can finish it by tonight.

Can't wait to meet up with people like Kenny Chong, Jevan, the rest of 4C (love!) and of course, F5!!! What have you girls been up to? I'm missing all of you!

Was blog-surfing, and chanced upon this in Chee Hui's blog. Hooray for questionnaires! :)

1. What time is it? 7:06pm
2. Name: Melissa
3. Nickname(s)(if any): Mel, Ho.
4. If you were a skittle,what color would you be? Hmm, red.
5. zodiac sign: Libra
6. Hair color: Black-brown
7. Eye color: Black/dark brown
8. Height: 160.5cm
9. Favorite Color(s): No particular favourites. Pink, green, red, white, brown are some I'm partial towards.
10. Glasses, contacts or neither: Both.
11. Shoe Size: 5 or 6
12. Piercing/tattoos?: Piercings; ears.
13. Birthplace: Singapore
14. Siblings names: Mitchelle and Melvin
******HAVE YOU EVER******
15. Cut your own hair?: Yeah, aha.
16. Skipped school?: Nope.
17. Bungee jumped?: No, but I'd like to try!
18. Went to a concert?: Yeah, my secondary school's band concert. -__-
19. Kissed someone of the same sex not related to you? Yeh, on my best friends.
20. Kiss more than two people in one day?: Nah.
21. Stared at the stars for hours?: Nope, but I'd love to do that.
22. Won something?: Yeh.
23. Been rejected?: Nope.
24. Been to a funeral?: Yes.
24. Used a lighter?: No, cos I don't know how to.
25. Been on stage?: Yeah.
******FAVORITE*****
26. Food: Muahaha. Fries, chocolates, ban mian, fried rice, SUBWAY, cookies, siewmai, anything with red bean paste, egg tarts, cheesecake, dory fish, fruit tarts, eclairs, black glutinous rice paste with coconut milk... I could go on forever.
27. Ice cream flavor: Rum & raisin
28. School subjects: Literature, General Paper
29. Breakfast cereal: Waffle Crisps, Blueberry Morning
30. Number(s): 10
31. Book(s): Harry Potter series, anything by Austen, Terry Pratchett, The Bonesetter's Daughter, I am David.
32. Movie(s): A Moment to Remember, The Guy was Muhshesuh, ...ing, Too Beautiful to Lie, Legally Blonde, Bring it On, Home Alone, Minority Report
33. Superhero and side kick: Hmm... Batman and Robin? But only cos Robin's hella cute.
34. Drink: H20, plain water.
35. State: Er... no idea.
36. Place: Mmm, my imagination? Haha. I dunno, haven't got a favourite place as of yet, but I like to park myself in front of the computer. Somewhere with a cool breeze, beautiful scenery, fresh air and complete tranquility would be nice.
37. Sport: Basketball, pingpong, soccer.
38. Fav type of music: Ballads, instrumental, r&b, pop.
39. Letter(s): Can't say I have anything. M sounds pretty fine though.
40. Fast food restaurant: McD's, Mos Burger
41. Cartoon: Totally Spies? I hardly watch cartoons nowadays. Used to like Pokemon alot, hahaha.
42. Holiday: December!
43. Name for a son: ROARK.
44. Name for a daughter: Um... Alyssa? Or maybe Arwen. (Like the LOTR's Arwen Evenstar)
******DO YOU PREFER*****
45. Chocolate or VanillA? Chocolate by itself, vanilla for ice-cream
46. Long relationships or one night stands?: Long relationships...
47. Dogs or cats? Dogs!
48. Scary movies or comedies? Comedies, I don't do scary movies.
49. Silver or gold?: Silver for jewelry, I don't want to get my neck chopped off, haha.
50. Croutons or bacon bits? Bacon bits.
******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
51. Hedgehog: Prickles... T___T My stuffed hedgehog toy from london.
52. School: Eh... A Levels... Doom...
53. Grass: The color Green, cows.
54. Cow: Beef, milk.
55. Canada: Maple leaf.
56. Mouse: Hahaha, that stupid song with the mouse and rice in it.
57. Hand: Playing the piano.
******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******
58. Watched a movie? Yes!
59. Talked on the phone?: Yep.
60. Cried?: I don't think so.
61. Threw up?: No, I haven't vomitted in eons.
62. Drank a glass of water?: Yes...
63. Talked to someone of the opposite sex?: Yup.
64. Read a book or magazine?: Yes!
65. Watched TV?: Of course.
66. Looked in the mirror? All the time, man, all the time.
67. Taken a shower?: No, I'm actually a pig reincarnate. I ABHOR SHOWERS!! I ONLY TAKE MUD BATHS!!
68. Taken a picture?: No..
69. Listened to music?: Yup
70. Kissed someone?: Nope
71. Done your HW? Yah.
72. Told someone you loved them & meant it?: Yes!
***DO YOU BELIEVE IN....******
73. Heaven? Yes
74. Aliens?: Maybe
75. Fun for the entire family?: Yes
76. Freedom of speech? No.
77. Love?: YES
78. Magic?: I'd like to.
*******SOME RANDOM STUFF******
79. Last movie you saw in theaters?: Can't remember.
80. Are you listening to music right now? Nope
81. What clothes are you wearing right now: Flower print shorts and a teddy bear teeshirt.
82. What is the best thing since sliced bread?: Internet
83. What's your GPA?: I have no idea.
84. Where do you want to live when you're older? England!
85. What time is it now? 7:43pm

---Hmm, about done packing for basketball camp. Hope I can squeeze everything into my duffel. Still gotta collect cutlery and paper plates from the CCA Room tomorrow.

Been reading Pride & Prejudice for the whole day. Very good read! It's been awhile since I've enjoyed a book so thoroughly.

Nothing much to say, except I shall only be back on Saturday night. Miss me!

This picture is to die for, isn't it? Lee Minwoo is absolutely hot. He can be my second husband, right after Song Seungheon. :) Been watching alot of his MVs, live performances and award presentations. He is absolutely divine, and very talented too. His dancing never fails to blow me away to Timbuktu.

Anyway, my poster for Encore is finally done! Click on the thumbnail below to view it.



Isn't it gorgeous? I really like it. One day I shall pick up Photoshopping and do such lovely posters too.

Had training this morning. Dragged myself out of bed, unwillingly, of course. Reached school at 7.15am sharp. Started off with the usual three rounds, which we haven't run in a long time. We did it backwards this time round; climbing the stairs, instead of the slope. It's tons easier, or maybe because I was jogging today instead of running. Training today was quite fruitful. We played a series of 5-on-5's, and jiaolian taught us a coupla of stuff. One is to pull your defender away from the ball and your teammate, and the other is to quickly vacate your spot if your teammate isn't able to pass you the ball at that place. I was controller, and I think its really difficult to play that position. Aish. But it was enjoyable, because I was actually cracking my brain to see how I could improve.

Showered in school, then had lunch at Zhonghua with the girls, before heading to Bugis with Zying to get some work done at the library. Was freezing my butt off in there, but managed to make some headway in Econs. Really don't know what I'm going to do about my Math. Haven't read King Lear, nor purchased Great Expectations. Aigoo. Better plan my study timetable for tomorrow, if not I won't get anything done again.

Basketball camp on Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Training will be held twice on Thursday and Friday. The morning one will be in NY, while the afternoon one will be in Cedar. Apparently we have to wake up at 5am, then go for a morning run, whereby we have to mount the damn slope SIX times. Wahaha. But I think its going to be super fun, because of the girls. We can sleep together, eat together, study together, gossip together... or maybe we'll be too tired to gossip. Rather excited about it. Got lots of things to pack. We'll be having alumni matches on Saturday, as well as a reunion dinner. Mmm, rather exciting.

Nearly squashed an old man today while trying to get down the bus. I hate bendy buses. They are never ever stable. Damnit. Good thing the old man had some fats on his body, and wasn't like those emaciated ahpeks. If not, I'd have taken a life. Lol. I realised that if you do enough embarrassing things in your life, after awhile, the embarrassment diminishes somewhat when you do stupid things like losing your balance/tripping over your own foot. Hurhur, I should know, I'm practically the Klutz Queen.

Sometimes, I really doubt I'll fulfil my lifetime ambition of marrying the man I love, and will continue to love forever, and having beautiful kids and a loving, warm home. Simply because my expectations of love are so high, and likewise my expectations of the perfect man for me. Why settle for mediocre, if you cannot have the best? I'd rather not take any marriage vows, then to sin and break those vows, simply because I chose to marry someone whom I do not love that much, and who doesn't exactly meet my expectations. Being single might get lonely sometimes, and you'd want someone to hug and kiss, and laugh, cry with. But being single gives you that everlasting hope that one day, you'll find someone whom is perfect for you. You know how girls are always looking for the perfect guy? I read somewhere, where a guy said, "It's not like the girls themselves are perfect, so who are they to want a perfect guy?" Rather true, don't you think? Sometimes I think us girls put ourselves on a pedestal, and regard males with an arrogant air. I think I'm contradicting myself now. Haha.

Can't wait to meet up with Markster, and Darianne and the rest of the people who are so important in my life. :)

Listening to Minwoo's "Girlfriend" now. I like the chorus. Last, First Kiss is pretty good too. My favourite is still "Bump" though! The MV is efn hot! :D

"There is no individual glory in a team."

The friendlies against HCI and Cedar yesterday were pretty alright. It made me realise just how bad my stamina was. And how you can feel exhausted just ten minutes into the game. Really need to build up my stamina and physical strength for defense. Went to eat prata (yes, yes, fattening I know) after that with Elaine, Angie, Zying and Jazz. After which, Zying and I headed to my house. Had dinner, watched Bring It On, which I never fail to get bored of, then watched DJG for awhile before heading to my room to talk a little, then we fell asleep. It must've been a boring sleepover, but I think we were too tired to last the whole night anyway.

Training this Monday, followed by a two-day break, before training camp starts on Thursday, and ends on Saturday night. I'm actually looking forward to it! Haha. Gotta try and finish up some more work by Thursday. I haven't touched Maths, dangit. It's time to don the battle gear and fight this war! =__=

Aish, I don't know what else to type. I can't blog anything intellectual since my brain has turned to mush from reading too many fanfics and playing too much Zuma.

Training today was alright. Ran six rounds around the track, was practically dying after that. -___-" I'm weak, weak! Played 5-on-5 after training. Quite fun, but as usual, I didn't get any balls in. I really must learn how to play with a clear head. I'm always feeling so nervous when the ball is passed to me. Had gym training after that, then a bunch of us went to 7-11 to buy food. Ate a corndog! It's alright, think it'd have tasted better with some Dijon mustard. Yummy. Went back to school after that to play some more ball. I was lying on my bag, looking at the planes go by for the most part. It feels very good, looking up at the vast, endless sky, and soaking in the warmth. Too bad I stank royally. Eugh. We called for Mcdelivery after that. But the fries were all soggy by the time we found the deliveryman. :( I must've appeared like a complete bimbo in front of the councillors, because I was shaking the drink on the cap of the cup, exclaiming that it defied gravity, because it wasn't spilling at all. The council president said dryly, "There are two caps." And everyone burst out laughing. <___<

Hmm, we're going to be playing matches against Cedar and HCI this Friday. Rather excited/nervous. Will be going to town after that with Zying, then she's going to stay over at my house! Hee:)

I shall not waste my television time on Rainbow Connection anymore. Because the bloody Jianyi decided that stupid Xiaoqian is truly the one he loves. Damnit! Really feel like banging him on the head. Now I know, guys prefer outgoing, cutesy girls who are always smiling. If you're slightly moody at times, and have alot of pride, and not that outgoing, they won't like you. Hmph! I shall watch my detective show instead, although the bloody Mo-sir is going to die in the end! Hello, whatever happened to HAPPY dramas?

I'm off for dinner now! P.S. Jazz Lee plucked her eyebrows and wore a gown for Prom! Muahaha. Can't wait for my own Prom next year. Brings back so many fond memories of last year.

I love Wheesung's voice, especially when he sings Angel. His English's pretty good.

Starting on Chapter 8 of Encore! Everything's still rather messy though. I'm going to start on my homework either today or tomorrow. Chi. I've got to finish all my homework before the new school term starts!

Gof Akara from Tiramisu is very, very handsome. I'd say he was hot, if not for his bad acting. But I love his eyes and his eyebrows. His eyebrows remind me of Song Seungheon. So bushy and thick! He's got gorgeous, creamy skin. Yum. His eyes are so pretty.

Going to be very occupied from the 15th to the 21st. Basketball camp's from the 15th to the 17th, followed by the Narnia event, which I'm going to help out with for CIP, together with some of the girls in my class. I was telling Eileen I want to be a singer for the event, and she said that my tent would be empty. -___- But it's quite true. Puahaha. Anyway, that's seven days of my holidays gone, so I'd better try and complete half of my homework before the 15th.

Training later. I'm looking forward to it, because there's gym training as well. ^^ Also, I missed Monday's training because of my swollen eye. So yeah. Itching to touch the ball again.

Yesterday, I was telling my brother I wanted to work in the AirForce after watching their advertisment on telly. He was saying I would have to be very alert, because I wanted to do the radio-control thing. You know, where you read radio signals from the planes and prevent them from crashing into another plane? And I was like, yeah, I can be alert! My brother gave me a look that said, "Er..." and he went, "Stick to writing lah, it's much slower." Damn that stupid boy. Lol. But I must admit I am a very slow person. Everything has to be done at my own pace, and my lifestyle has always been so relaxed. I'm like a snail trapped in my cosy little shell, sliding along.

Okay, I need to go shower now. Here's something I wrote for my latest chapter of Encore. I quite like it.

"Night fell, and a cool breeze danced lightly in the air. Soojung sat by the lake, watching the water ripple gently in the wind, creating folds of black satin that reflected the faint moonlight. As she took in a lungful of the brisk, fresh air that was redolent with the scent of grass and dew, her eyes were drawn towards the night sky.

It was an endless, velvet black, encrusted with countless of twinkling stars.

Like his eyes… his beautiful sable eyes. So black that they were like twin black holes, drawing you in with their sheer magnetism, their irresistibility. Once you fell into the abyss, you would continue to fall forever.

His eyes had been like the night sky, but he had been like the sun."
-Encore Dell'Amore

I am so sick of this life, I wish I could open my wardrobe and enter Narnia right now.

Okay, maybe not. But I know I want to be a character in one of those fanfics on Soompi. I live my life foolishly! I feel as if a big, big cloud is obscuring my vision, metaphorically speaking, and disabling me from seeing the cruel, harsh reality of life. Wake up? Yes, I know I need to do that, but this is just me. I will forever be so dreamy and build sandcastles in the air. Aish, sometimes I really wonder what is up with me. I absolutely crave perfection when it comes to certain things, yet towards some other things, I could hardly care. Love, the way I look, the things I write... all of them have to be in the exact same mould I have casted for them, otherwise, they will become ugly to me.

I know that it is very easy for me to become a wo na fei, simply because I love languishing and lazing around so much. It is only through the sheer fear of living a hard life filled with poverty, and the inability to buy pretty things for myself, as well as support my parents, that spurs me on to study. I am not one of those people who are willing to study so hard all of their school years, and have their careers mapped out. I feel like such a bum sometimes. I take things very easily, and I never ever stressed till the last minute.

I miss the verbal sparring that I had with people like Jevan & Bernard Hoon. The teasings with Sockos, Shyuan, Vannessa & the Famous Five. I've known these people for the better part of my life, and when you suddenly find that easy comraderie gone from your life... you just realise what a precious thing it was.

Funny how Mr. Jeow said JC would be one of the best times of my life, but I don't find myself enjoying it. I am just horrendously neutral about it. I will never bitch about the people in my school again, because it is just so freaking pointless. Would polytechnic have been a better choice? I honestly don't know. The only worthy learning point in JC so far would be joining basketball. I've learnt discipline and perserverance from there.

One day my life is going to change and I am going to do the things I love the most. One day I will not be tied down by the strict regimentations of the education system here.
One day.

Feeling like crap now. Ahhh. Seems like my stomach flu hasn't gone away yet. Lao sai-ed again this morning. On top of that I've got the cramps. Gaaah. The life of a woman is sad.

Dad's coming home tonight. Going to the airport to pick him up. ^^

Feel like dropping dead on my bed & sleep the discomfort away. But I've got training later on. Hope I can jian chi dao di!

I can never seem to get my first episode of Ijuksa. The internet simply refuses to co-operate with me.

I finished chapter five of Encore! And I can finally use Rachel's "Regrets" in it. I love that piece of hers.

Currently listening to Youme's "Love is always thirsty". It's very very nice.

Feel like writing something, but I don't know what. Quite a coupla of nice stories on Soompi now... but none of them are completed. Maybe I'll go read Tainted Memories again.