Annyong~ I always enjoy reading Karen chingoo's blog, and after I do so, I'd feel like blogging. Haha.

Today was our friendly match against Jurong Sec. We won by a small margin: 33-29. Nevertheless, I'm quite happy for the team. Because our win proves that what they said was wrong. Maybe some of our players lack experience, but that doesn't mean we're going to let you score so easily. Today's match made me realise that I really have to work extra hard and do a lot of self-training if I want to play in A-divisions. I really don't want to be a benchwarmer and watch them play. I mean, I like cheering my teammates on and everything, and seeing them score. But I want to be in the thick of the action for at least a good part of the game. So I need to prove to jiaolian that I'm worthy of being in the team. Argh, I don't think I've ever wanted anything so much. Except maybe when we were auditioning for a spot in the team to participate in dance competitions back in secondary school. It'd be good to get some of my old drive back. I think I lost it along the way in secondary school, because I sure wasn't this way in primary school.

I'll be so busy for the rest of this week. There's training tomorrow, which I am actually looking forward to, because of my newfound determination and everything. I just hope it lasts. Then on Friday and maybe Saturday, I'll be helping to bake cookies for the Valentine's Day booth. I hope I don't eat half of what we bake, lol.

I'm turning into an oddball. I keep holding conversations with myself in my head, while talking to people. It's like, I can be having a normal conversation with someone, but at the same time, I'm having like side comments about the person/conversation in my head. It's like a commentator at the match. I guess I've always been like that, but lately it seems to be getting more frequent. I'm really afraid I'll turn into a schizophrenic. Yikes.

It's getting late, so I'll be stopping my entry here. I just want to add a last thought: Confidence in yourself can sometimes be the key to liberating yourself and doing better. All you have to do is believe in yourself and your abilities. Don't ever undermine your own capabilities! :)