Hello. So today is THE day. The day where its detractors condemn it to be a commercialized "holiday", where lonely singles say that Valentine's Day is a day to celebrate friendships and where the price of flowers get jacked up sky-high.

I got lots of sweet little gifts from my classmates, basketball mates and friends. And all I gave them were stupid chocolate hearts that tasted like crap. I feel so guilty and I know its the thought that counts, but I really should buy better presents next time.

The past two days; yesterday and today that is, made me learn a lot about the people around me, and made me reflect upon my reactions to their actions. And I realised that sometimes, one just needs to let go of trivial matters, because they really aren't worth me worrying over them. I think I'm kind of immature in this aspect. One thing I need to do is care less. Hmm.

Sometimes, I'm really unhappy with what people do, but I've learnt to keep it to myself. After all, ignorance is bliss. Where before, I'd immediately snap out at the person to make he/she realise that what they are doing is quite insensitive and selfish, now, I just wait for that moment to pass, and hold back my frustration. Slowly, slowly I'll learn to ignore such things and not care. I would like not to have a temper at times, and to be impervious to all these things.

And I also realised that there are generally three types of people you will come across in your life.

1. True bosom friends whom you will forge real friendships with, and these bonds will last a lifetime.

2. Friends whom will last the course of your school life.

3. Numskulls whom you only have a superficial acquaintance with, and behave so friendly and nice to you, but who couldn't really care if you're dead or alive.

I'm sorry, I just had to throw the last point in, and use the word "numskull", because I like that word. Haha. Believe me, I've seen my fair share of such people. There are quite a handful littered around the grounds of my school. I really cannot fathom how their minds work.

Sometimes, I wish I had a character such as SYJ's in Summer Scent. Sweet, kind and you will never hear an unkind word from her mouth. I just feel so mean and ugly inside sometimes. Such people just seem so virtuous and they really have a beauty that goes beyond the surface. It's as if the very purity of their hearts shine through.

That aside, Mark is a very nice guy! Haha. I just felt I had to say that. I have to salute him for his generosity of heart. :)

Something happened just now, which kind of broke my heart. Not because it hurt me, but my heart broke for the party concerned. I don't know the situation so I cannot comment. But from what I can see, it seems as if he loves you very much. So why do you keep pushing him away?

I kind of lost my drive last week. Tomorrow, I shall get it back. Or tonight. Full steam ahead!!