I couldn't help crying as I read Joan's blog. Have you heard of Joan? Read today's Life.

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I read her archives, and the way she types and everything, just sounded so much like my sister. She's someone so personable, open and somehow, familiar. She went to RGS and then RJC, and she has an architechture course open for her at NUS. She was captain of her softball team in RJC. Her dad is a taxi-driver, and her mom worked at a childcare worker. She just seems to me to be the type who worked so hard in school to make her parents proud, so that she can get into a good course, get a good job and support her family. Her latest entries are so heart-wrenching. Maybe this is why I don't know how to put all my heart and soul into believing God is there. Reading her fervert prayers, for nothing more than to just recover from the cancer, but not having them answered by Him. Why? Why deem her to suffer? Why is it always the good people who suffer? Why is it not the people who do evil things and are selfish who suffer?

I feel so scared for her, for her family, for my friends, my family. How are her parents and brother going to live without her presence? She seems like a bright spark, a vibrant person who always lights up the room. How will she feel, leaving her family, her friends? How will her friends feel? All the people who have worked so hard to raise funds to tide her family through?

Dear God, I hope you will let her live. I really, really hope you will let her live. In letting her live, you will be giving not only her a new lease of life, but her family, friends and the countless of other people who have prayed for her and helped her as well.

I know death will give her Heaven, but I know she wants to stay on Earth for now. I know she doesn't want to leave just yet. Life may be filled with boundless suffering and pain, but it's filled with boundless happiness and love too. Please give her a chance to re-experience all these.

She can't just go like that. Not just yet. Please don't give up, Joan. Please please please keep on fighting.