And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Declare myself a fan of Oasis!

It was only this year that I discovered that the school library has so many good books waiting for me to discover them. And it comes at a time that is so unappropriate! The 'A' levels are looming over the horizon man. I want to read so many of the books there. Argh.

I need someone to wind the key in my clockwork everyday. Would you be my winder? :)

It's okay, you, maybe I see where you're coming from. I won't deny I feel rather sad it should be this way, but like I said, it's okay. I'm slowly learning to live with it, slowly convincing myself it's for the best. I wish things wouldn't be this way. A convuluted mess. I spend time pointlessly thinking about it, which is needless. I've pulled through before. I can pull through again. The situation's vastly different yet similar.

One night, I wrote,

I'm sorry for feeling this way, but I feel as if this is goodbye. Maybe it is. I'll miss you terribly.

Goodbye doesn't have to be immediate and final. I would like it to be, but I know this goodbye is going to be a drawn-out one, it's going to be tough. There are times like this when I wish for Anne's self-restraint.

Nobody told me it'd feel so good
Nobody said you'd be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You're the light
You're the light
When I close my eyes
I'm colourblind

Old song, but Santiao sent it to me today!!! ZYING IT ISN'T GAY!! IT'S HEART-MELTING!
Heeheehee.

It's much easier to focus more on the good points in people.

Anyway, was not supposed to communicate with my sister today, since she made me so angry yesterday, when she was writing CDs (can be Captain Jack's good friend, she's as worthy a pirate as he is) on her laptop till like 11.30pm lah. Couldn't sleep with the light on and her clicking away obnoxiously at her mouse. The sound was so resounding in the room, 'cos the windows were all shut. I got so annoyed I stomped to my brother's room to sleep, thinking she'd come after me to tell me I could go back to the air-conditioned comfort of our room, because she'd bringing her CD-writing outside, but noooo! She totally ignored me. So angry lah. My reverse-psychology didn't work. Okay, but I couldn't resist talking to her today. Me and my stupid mouth.